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derealization bothers me only when im outside

09 January 2021 - 02:19 PM

anybody can relate?

my illness will take my very lovely girlfriend from me

05 January 2021 - 06:33 AM

this is not fair man. she loves me soo much. she shows me so much love and support. but my illness will take her away from me.. earlier or later.. it doesnt allow me to have a fullfilled life with her.. although i know, i love her so much, there is no inner drive let alone emotions.. sometimes im more sad for her than for me. she finds someone she can love and be happy when she is with him, but this guy is not able to give her what he needs because of this fucked illness..

this forum was a couple of years ago much more positive

25 December 2020 - 08:16 AM

i just readed old posts from 2008-2014, and i figured out, that community was much more positive. the people were much more kind to each other.

i will try next week neuronavigated tms

22 December 2020 - 09:08 AM


i will try next week neuronavigated tms in istanbul. i want to try all the locations those were related to a response in the studies (rlvpfc, tpj, angular gyrus)

i think 2 sessions per location will be enough to figure out, if i do respond or not.

i will also try the ocd helmet from brainsway because mg said it could work alternatively due to its impact to the anterior cingulate and dorsomedial prefrontal cortex.

i will update you guys.

im not sure if i have the blank mind

15 December 2020 - 02:14 PM

i know, its not the first post about this topic from me, but nobody replied to the other post.

i have a good long term memory, and i can also picture things in my mind even though they are very blurry. and i have my inner monologue. but still, it feels sometimes like i dont have thoughts, especially not vivid thoughts. i also dont have automatic thoughts about the daily things. they are very distant from me, like there is a glass wall between myself and my thoughts. and about my future there is nothing. as if i wouldnt have any future.

and another thing is, some people here developed the blank mind, after suffering many years from dp. is there a way to avoid a trigger of the blank mind?