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#621700 1st post

Posted by leminaseri on 08 September 2020 - 01:26 PM

I don’t actually feel detached it’s more the fear of feeling unreal or detached if that makes sense!!

you come in this forum and your first sentence is „i had have dp for 37 years“ and then you say i dont actually feel detached. those confusing informations are killing hope of sufferers for recovery thats not right man

#621512 Recovered from Depersonalization, Dissociation, and Depression COMPLETELY for...

Posted by leminaseri on 06 September 2020 - 03:41 PM

congrats for your recovery. but that medication wont have an impact

#621372 Still cured...and bringing you a book recommendation!

Posted by leminaseri on 02 September 2020 - 11:26 AM

Hey guys,

I'm just chipping here now to tell you that chronic dissociation (regardless of how you like to define your individual situation - "drug-induced derealisation", "chronic DPDR", "intermittent depersonalisation"..) is cured in the same way. I completely respect that this is impossible to see while trapped in the horrible, frankly terrifying symptoms that come along with things/yourself feeling 'unreal', but this is an absolute truth that you should try your best to believe.

Why? Believing this will push you 30% towards recovery. The longer you spend watching youtube videos that try and further guide you towards diagnosing yourself differently/analysing "whether you have chronic/intermittent dissociation", the more you are falling into identifying as a patient, ruminating more, etc. This will sustain your symptoms, whether they are permanent or arise sporadically.

I can tell you that I suffered from severe chronic (really 24/7) depersonalisation and derealisation triggered by drugs and sustained by 'reality-checking' and OCD tendencies. And, I managed to direct my flow away from reality/my condition, and have been 100% cured for years.

Don't let anyone tell you that chronic DPDR is a different beast in terms of recovery, for it isn't. In terms of experience, sure - there are undeniably huge differences between the experience of someone who experiences occasional dissociation when stressed and someone who permanently feels 'drugged' and dissociated.

But, let's be careful and not mix up what's interesting/valid to analyse (i.e. what could be studied and talked about) and what's relevant to recovery.

There are hundreds of things that we can scrutinise and categorise etc. when it comes to dissociative symptoms, but trust me, they are better accepted as the umbrella concept that they are and treated as so. This attitude will be seem super counterintuitive and 'overly-simplistic', but it is exactly what allowed me to slip out of (and remain free from!) the most horrendous, chronic DPDR that I believed to be "permanent and nothing to do with anxiety".

That's all - I hope this answer resonates with whoever reads it, and that it doesn't come across harsh. I'm just so, so passionate about imparting every last shred of information that I know to be true regarding this sneaky, illusory disorder (that, as a side effect, makes you want to research it excessively and make things more complex than they are!). If I see anyone talking in a way that I know to be limiting/make recovery less likely, I'll swoop in and share my two cents now that I'm totally cured. icon_wink.gificon_razz.gif

thank you for your long reply.

i was able to recover from my dpdr once also. and i had a very wrong and mistakeful life after it. i hadnt thought „i have to enjoy my life, im free of dissociation“. no. i had abused emotionally myself. i had hated my self because i had said to me „you are very ugly and worthless because of this no woman wants you“. and after all that mistakeful life i got a very severe relapse with incredible anxiety and major depressive episode. thats not the same thing like before. the first time it was a childs play for me to overcome it. there are differences between dpdr as symptom of anxiety and dpd. and im unfortunately sure, this one will not cure. i feel that impossibility. my brain says to me no..

#621230 Still cured...and bringing you a book recommendation!

Posted by leminaseri on 30 August 2020 - 05:52 PM

dpdr as a symptom of anxiety or depression is curable yes. but depersonalization disorder is not the same thing. and dpd is very hard to treat.

#620686 hey guys this video has killed all my hope please say me its not real :(

Posted by leminaseri on 20 August 2020 - 08:47 AM

Hey leminaseri,

Don't lose hope by identifying with other people having DP, because we are all different - that is something you can clearly see here, at this forum.

Sure, sometimes we wish that is does not have to be so damn difficult, particularly when we are already worn out by all the struggle, but it is what it is.

Keep focus on your own experience, on your strengths and your resources. Give yourself credit for all that you have been able to do by now, and don't give up.


yes i understand.. thank you for your advices

#620606 psychosis/schizophrenia

Posted by leminaseri on 18 August 2020 - 11:26 AM

You said it yourself, "...although I am 100 percent aware that this person is not god". Reality testing is intact, it doesn't sound like a psychosis. It sounds like you have intrusive thoughts based around a fear of going mad. Even if a person does develop a psychosis or schizophrenia, you should know it is very treatable. Antipsychotics are very effective. There isn't a standard medication for dp/dr however. It sounds to me like you have anxiety induced dp/dr and the weird symptoms have led to you developing a fear of losing your mind which has led to heightened analysis of every thought and feeling you experience, which feeds into itself in a cycle. You sound sane. You need to deal with the anxiety though, whether that is changing your reaction to the intrusive thoughts (seeing them as just thoughts), taking time out, livng a healthier lifestyle or finding some stability.

thanks for your reply. i try to distract me with working and some funny stuff and honestly it had worked pretty good. i get much better with that psychosis fears

#620604 psychosis/schizophrenia

Posted by leminaseri on 18 August 2020 - 11:24 AM

Not sure if this makes you feel any better, but I know people who have schizophrenia/psychosis combined with other things. My exes mum had it and she's just a regular person like you, you know, and she's able to do anything any other human would be able to do. I know it's not like that for everyone who has schizophrenia related issues, but just know that even if you do get it, it's not game over, far from it. Having any mental illness is not fun, but it's just the way it is, worrying about getting it isn't going to make it more or less likely to happen so just live your life and if anything is preventing you from doing so, try to deal with it as best you can, and the best way you can do with this situation in specific I believe is to know the facts and move on. The facts are everywhere on the internet, there's a 1% percent chance that a person will develop schizophrenia in their lifetime so there's a 99% chance you won't. I know its scary, and I've thought similar thoughts, and still do, but if you honestly just look at it logically, you don't have anything to worry about unless it presents itself. You don't have it by the way, based on the symptoms you mentioned. Hope you get better from this, I know how hard it is sometimes

thanks for your reply. i fortunately get much better with those thoughts.. I have been working completely independently and full-time for 2 weeks. I think that helped me a lot.