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Offline Last Active Jan 13 2021 02:21 PM

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In Topic: It’s getting really bad

09 January 2021 - 06:19 PM

If its gotten better before who says it wont again?

unfortunately, although i recovered once 100% from all the various symptoms of dpdr, i can not grasp and induce this idea to my mind. the idea of „this time its very different, and this is a sign for it wont be better“ is so powerful. i can not change this thinking.

In Topic: derealization bothers me only when im outside

09 January 2021 - 06:08 PM

Well yeah I would say I relate. I don’t know if you mean that it’s being outdoors or indoors that affects the derealisation. (I would say my derealisation is pretty bad in any public place no matter if it’s indoors or outdoors). To me it’s because being at home/someone else’s house doesn’t require me to be alert and I don’t necessarily need for everything to look real. Unlike being in the park, grocery store, work, library etc. where I’m genuinely expected to be “in control”, and have a sense of my surroundings. Is that sort of what you mean?

i mean when im indoor, there is nothing what reminds me on derealization. only when im outside, regardless where, the camera-like-view and the 2Dish vision is noticeable

In Topic: derealization bothers me only when im outside

09 January 2021 - 06:05 PM

You say you have depersonalization also. Does that still bother you regardless of where you are?

i think im kind of used to the dp, especially to the lack of the sense of self. the biggest thing what bothers me is i have difficulties to use my cognitive abilities and the lack of critical thinking. nothing has a meaning. and the disconnection to the natural life. and the emotional anhedonia is of course an issue.

In Topic: derealization bothers me only when im outside

09 January 2021 - 03:16 PM

Do you mean bother as in you only experience it outside, or do you mean that it doesn’t become an issue until you go outside?

the second one

In Topic: i will try next week neuronavigated tms

08 January 2021 - 02:19 PM

had my 5th session today. i dont feel any significant change. the only thing i can register is i fall much easier asleep, and it feels good to be tired and know i will fall asleep soon. i will do 10 sessions of this location so 5 more.. lets see what it will do