I precede this board by 20 years. My trauma began in 1971, before there was an internet to support a board.
My trauma didn't care if the board existed, or not.
I ruminated about my illness and symptoms alone, before there was a practical way to find others
who shared similar symptoms. I didn't seek psychiatric help for my first 20 years.
This group has changed quite a bit over the years. Baby boomers to millennials.
I was off and on researching the origins of my illness for 40 years. If I could have ignored it,
I certainly would have. As it turned out, I solved my riddle. At 17, I had a series of powerful temporal
lobe seizures that damaged my temporal lobe; gifting me with the affective disorder of recurrent
major depression. Researching my "rare epileptic syndrome" led to explanations of all the odd
symptoms I experienced, which grounded me for the longer haul. No, I don't regret the time I spent
searching for my answers. But, I never considered myself a neurotic.
Ever since I was diagnosed about 1 year and 3 months, I have been constantly researching about it, day after day. Obviously since it disrupts your vision, feeling and so, it is nearly impossible for one to forget about it or not search it up since its constantly there.
Hence, this board here has been very very helpful for me and others to understand this disorder and feeling connected to others than are suffering the same thing, not feeling alone completely.
Although, in my case, it was triggered by substance abuse and well my anxiety level spiked up abnormally, tricking my brain in believing that I am going through something traumatic events. Some have gone through therapy to understand their trauma and once they have resolved their trauma after countless amount of therapeutical seasons, they progress alot. However, in my case, I haven't had anything really traumatic, and reasoning this disorder everyday in the sense of what is my trauma had me always thinking. Therefore, I came to my senses that it might be the experience, discomfort and constant thought of this disorder that can result in it being my unresolved trauma? Researching it everyday can have a negative impact on my anxiety levels? Not sure.