I had DPDR for myself aswell with a lot of weird thoughts at the same time. What helped me to get through it is knowing that God will always help you and want to help you and be good for you. And if you do not trust that God will help you because of your mistakes, please know that this is wrong and that you can still trust and believe that God will help you, because of His Son, Jesus. Please keep the hope that it will be allright. Stay strong and I hope for you everything will get better soon!