Also another thing that I found hard to see and accept was that DpDr gives safety in a way. A false sense of security. You close yourself in a small box, if the world is scary the little box is safe right? And while your in that box you dont have to face the hard facts. For me it is that my mother and cat are getting old and maybe I loose these two important beings in the not so distant future, Im getting old and I have no job, education, family, girlfriend or social life, Im behind and far away from my goals, hope and dreams, the world is feels more chaotic each year ETC. You hide in your DpDr box and all the realistic things you worry about they will sooner or later happen to you but you wont feel anything in your box. Not any negative emotion, no positive emotions ether. You're numb to the world. Your safe from emotional hurt but your life is in shambles. Its not worth it. Better to live with the fear, a. Accept it and it cant hurt you. Its hard to acknowledge that the thing you hate gives you the illusion of safety. Its hard to leave safety even if you're trapped in a small box that you hate. Its like the baby bird who jumps from the nest to fly. Im gonna jump this box soon, I can feel it. Then Im going to fucking fly. Hope you to will do that some day.
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