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Slept 18 hours

26 March 2019 - 07:26 PM

Does anyone else have troubles with sleep, I seem to sleep 9+ hours every night and recently woke up and went back to sleep for another 9 hours, slept an entire day basically.

 

I wake up feeling like I haven't slept, and I could instantly go back to sleep.

 

 


Time goes so fast

09 March 2019 - 05:03 AM

I've noticed, particularly recently, that time goes so strangely fast. 2 Hours feels like nothing, a day feels like nothing, is this a common symptom?

 

Feels like time's alluding faster and faster like it never has before.


Alcohol

02 March 2019 - 10:52 AM

18, first time drinking and did 10.8 units. Instantly I lost the progress of my DP recovery, feels like I'm back to square one now.

 

Does anyone else experience DP while drinking?


Is DP just existential anxiety?

15 February 2019 - 11:53 PM

I explained in another post my theory on DP;

When we manually breathe it disrupts the breathing pattern, it's something we're not meant to be aware of.

Is DP just the same thing but we are "manually living"? I always slip in and out of this manually living state whether I'm thinking about it or not.

 

Before DP we never ever chronically thought about the meaning of our existence or ever constantly self-reflected.

If you can remember a memory from before you had DP - What did it feel like? It felt ignorantly bliss. We simply never self-reflected like we do constantly on a day to day basis now.

 

I think what I'm trying to say is we're just too "woke". We've red pilled ourself into existential anxiety and depression.

We're smart people,  all of my panic attacks ever, have been triggered by an event that would cause self-reflecting (Ie. Birthday,  Christmas or major life changes)

 

My DP effect is mostly gone because I started to realise the DP was just "me noticing me", but the existential depression is there and it's hard to forget about.


Something I've learnt from my experience

14 February 2019 - 01:32 AM

(This theory is only applicable to people with light/moderate DP)

 

My theory on DP is very simple -

 

You know when you are acutely aware of your breathing because someone or something triggered you to think about it? What takes place next is a disruption in breathing patterns, as your "Manually breathing".

Well, I see DP as pretty much the same, you're just aware of your living, let's call it "Manually living".

 

Before I ever had DP I never was contemplating life and thinking about anything unless it was in front of me, I never thought about who I am or where I am.

 

We're not designed to think about these things because they disrupt the function of what it is we are to monitor.

 

Before we had DP we were in this automatic mode of living, but something has triggered us to become slightly existential and think about ourselves outside the box.

 

That DP feeling is always there 24/7, you're just realising your consciousness. Just like in the manual breathing, you're realising your breathing.

 

OCD and obsessive thoughts and anxiety can cause us to DP and the anxiety of finding an answer causes more DP and so on.

 

To know if you're experiencing the same sort of DP as me I'll list my symptoms:

-Not feeling real or like you're watching yourself from the back of your head (Duh!)

-Constant seemingly random thoughts in my head along with songs and other mind chatter.

-Time seems to go way faster than usual

-Depression (Particularly existential)

-Health Anxiety

-Sometimes symptoms clear while very distracted

-A myriad of weird nervous system problems 

 

I'm on the road to recovery, I usually only experience DP once a week.

 

Take this with a grain of salt I'm just speculating because of my personal experience.