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#598030 what if I died already ?

Posted by Array on 12 March 2019 - 09:48 AM

Lol I had these thoughts before I had DP, like, I've been punched, shocked by outlets and all types of near death stuff that make me wonder if I actually died when these events occurred, I totally understand you and can relate AF.

#597750 I don’t want to constantly have to distract my mind in order to cope with my...

Posted by Array on 06 March 2019 - 01:01 PM

Trust me, these insane theories about the universe and the idea of existence in general haunt me every second. There are 0 answers to these questions, literally, I've tried, no matter what - the rules of the universe are arbitrary and you cannot prove that you're not in a simulation but the funny thing is these questions apply to the universe above us (If there is one) about the reasoning for their existence, the cure sorry to say, is just to stop thinking about it or get into the habit of preventing yourself from going down the rabbit hole every time it starts.

#597076 Who has DP but no anxiety?

Posted by Array on 18 February 2019 - 12:42 AM

You probably would have anxiety but just not notice it. When I had the worst of it, I'd be emotionless, numb. Wouldn't feel anxious but I know deep down I was.

#596914 Something I've learnt from my experience

Posted by Array on 14 February 2019 - 01:32 AM

(This theory is only applicable to people with light/moderate DP)


My theory on DP is very simple -


You know when you are acutely aware of your breathing because someone or something triggered you to think about it? What takes place next is a disruption in breathing patterns, as your "Manually breathing".

Well, I see DP as pretty much the same, you're just aware of your living, let's call it "Manually living".


Before I ever had DP I never was contemplating life and thinking about anything unless it was in front of me, I never thought about who I am or where I am.


We're not designed to think about these things because they disrupt the function of what it is we are to monitor.


Before we had DP we were in this automatic mode of living, but something has triggered us to become slightly existential and think about ourselves outside the box.


That DP feeling is always there 24/7, you're just realising your consciousness. Just like in the manual breathing, you're realising your breathing.


OCD and obsessive thoughts and anxiety can cause us to DP and the anxiety of finding an answer causes more DP and so on.


To know if you're experiencing the same sort of DP as me I'll list my symptoms:

-Not feeling real or like you're watching yourself from the back of your head (Duh!)

-Constant seemingly random thoughts in my head along with songs and other mind chatter.

-Time seems to go way faster than usual

-Depression (Particularly existential)

-Health Anxiety

-Sometimes symptoms clear while very distracted

-A myriad of weird nervous system problems 


I'm on the road to recovery, I usually only experience DP once a week.


Take this with a grain of salt I'm just speculating because of my personal experience.

#595912 Just a thought

Posted by Array on 20 January 2019 - 11:19 PM

Thanks, you too! I've too only had this for a few months and I have moments where I snap in and out of it, this is one horrible disorder, but the fact you snap out of it temporarily means your still there, nothing has changed! smile.png 

#595758 Meditation or Mindfulness Will Not Directly Solve Depersonalization, Derealiz...

Posted by Array on 17 January 2019 - 05:05 PM

This idea is amazing, I noticed on the day of my job interview the entire world went back to normal speed (I usually would complain of time going fast), it felt like that particular day went of forever, I was nearly entirely cured that day. Until I came back home and it slowly came back to me over the week.

#595754 constantly fighting my mind.

Posted by Array on 17 January 2019 - 04:32 PM

Surprisingly, all my symptoms went away when I went for a job interview (and then slowly came back through the following week). I guess its just obsessive thoughts, you just have to stay on your toes all the time and distract yourself. You have moments of feeling normal right? That's proof that you are still normal, nothing has changed. You just obsessively think about it, it's part of your routine. Try doing something intensive, to completely distract your mind from it, or get out more often.

#595752 amnesia...?

Posted by Array on 17 January 2019 - 04:25 PM

I'm getting this exact symptom crazy right now, I usually can't remember what I ate 2 hours ago. I can remember some key things that happened during a month, but I seem to misjudge the how long ago they occurred like I could be weeks off.