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FirstAid

Member Since 19 Nov 2018
Offline Last Active Aug 12 2019 06:55 AM
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Topics I've Started

Thinking of doing a YouTube video, highlighting my symptoms and how I have progressed, fuck knows if anyone would be interested

11 March 2019 - 12:09 PM

As per title? Anyone open to viewing it.

Thinking of starting mitazipine or something, whatever it's called.

06 March 2019 - 06:06 AM

Thinking of starting medication as I am not really sleeping, plus not getting any better at all.

May meds may help, I have been against the idea for ages but this is the point where I'll consider them.

Odd thing is, I don't really feel anxiety but my mind won't shut up, feel like I'm in deep thought and I don't want to be but it feels like normal thinking but I know its not.

Anyone have these shite symptoms?

14 February 2019 - 08:21 AM

No identity

No self, as in no connection with your consciousness, like an empty shell.

Uncomfortable in own presence

Stranger to self

Feels like a dream but completely awake

Better than normal vision

Nothing has atmosphere

Can't connect to anything or anyone

Family seem like strangers

Not actually anxious

Pressure in head

Constant music

Thoughts sound more like dissociation, dont fell like my own

Forgotten what own thoughts sound like.

Mind is pretty much blank, no wants or cares

No emotions, not numbness, I'm talking as if they were never there.

No emotional attachment to memories

Feel like I am stuck in my subconscious, like my experiencing self who carries out tasks is seperated from the thinking.

Dissociative thoughts don't feel as if I'm dissociating, its like im stuck in the place were you they come from and it feels normal.

Anyone feel uncomfortable in their own presence, like a stranger to themself.

08 February 2019 - 10:59 AM

Keep feeling uncomfortable as I have no sense of self, Feel like a stranger to myself but I have no self so my brains like who the fuck is this in this body?

Also, its like I'm watching myself live, like im not looking through my eyes. I see shit clearly but I don't connect, I'll speak to someone or something and its like im spectating myself doing it rather than experiencing it.

I have been aware of every change and symptom but lately it feels like im stuck in my subconscious with very limited function, my thoughts come from nowhere and I'm thinking should I say that, should I say this etc. Can't even recognise my own thoughts anymore also, sucks massive balls this does.


Hopefully I have a break through once my therapy properly begins, I need to make changes like diet and exercise etc, but because I have no motivation as I don't think it will help, I don't make those changes.

Anyone else?

Anyone forgot what things used to be like?

10 January 2019 - 02:34 PM

Can't seem to remember how things used to feel like, memories, what it was like to have emotions, how my vision used to be, how my hands used to look etc,how I used to think and sleep even.

Keep having thoughts that this is not DP but some form of ego death due to letting my thoughts run wild and not trying to fight the dp back, essentially giving up trying to fight, trying to get better.

Anyone else?