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In Topic: How to do Meditative Shadow work for DPDR

22 April 2019 - 04:12 AM

Hi there, Its been a long time and I'm going to share an update. I am doing well, feeling good, my depersonalization is completely cured and doesn't come back. Derealization is still there but less and every now in then things feel realer. All the other conditions BPD which was actually like mild Dissociative identity Disorder is resolving, so as the HPPD/Hallucinations.
Here's an intro on shadow work: Suppressed Negative emotions are the root cause of most psychological disorders including DPDR, anxiety, OCD, depression, etc.
As many know facing negative emotions the EFT approach(Saying limiting thoughts out loud with or without a positive setup or positive affirmation) can be helpful in resolving negative emotion, it obviously can be difficult. 
I believe Meditative Shadow Work is the most gradual, consistent, and therefore easiest way to heal negative emotion. This includes having a meditative mindset. As Alan Watts once said many people today are talking to themselves all the time mentally. Meditation and maintaining a meditative mindset requires us to stop talking to ourselves mentally and to start hearing ourselves talk internally and feel our internal emotions good or bad. This also involves breathing and relaxing ourselves. As a Buddhist Monk said we can meditate all the time by breathing and observing our monkey minds or inner minds. It's good to understand that negative thoughts arising can be tools for rising negative emotions as a way of expression. Meditation is effective if you do it correctly.

Good Luck,

Face Your Fear

Interesting glad you are doing well. Have you got posts on how to do this shadow stuff?

In Topic: Is this dp?

21 April 2019 - 10:17 AM

Yeah I understand bit It is very scary when you need to think all the time and nothing comes up. Time perception is nothing now. Did you also have this? I feel nothing. I think its chemical I see a lot of people damaged by mirtazapine.

Find it hard to think, perception of time is off. The year I have been in this has went by like a couple of weeks. I don't check the time like I used to. No emotions no connection to self.
I'm aware its scary but I believe your brain has to rebalance itself in your case.

In Topic: Is this dp?

21 April 2019 - 08:38 AM

Hello I have read a lot of stories here.
English isnt my first language so sorry for that.
I have used mirtazapine for 1 year for sleep problems.
I never used any other drugs in my life and I trusted my doctor when she said I can come off it with no problems.
Since I stopped I lost all of my emotions,all sense off time,I feel very stupid and cant think. My sleep is very bad but I never get tired or hungry.
I saw a lot of people here who got the same symptoms but it seems these symptoms are more difficult to recover from.
My question is when you got the blank mind/cognitive depersonalisation what are the causes? I see a lot of people who got this from antidepressants. Are there people here who got this from anxiety or trauma only? Im realy scared and dont know what to do.

Did you come off them slowly or altogether? Could be withdrawal from them, people have had this from medication and or stress trauma, I was depressed and extremely anxious prior to this, alot of things got ontop of me and I succumb to depersonalization.

Best thing to do is relax also and not worry. Worrying only makes it worse and is more likely to prelong it. If I would of stopped worrying when it first happened I would of been done with this long ago.

In Topic: Lost the ability to visualize memories and images in my mind

20 April 2019 - 02:43 AM

Well, now I know not to bother posting here anymore. Thanks for nothing I guess.

Ignore him, all I can say is this. Emdr should lessen the trauma but don't you initially have to relive it? Sometimes that can make yourself worse if you aren't ready to process the trauma, usually it's worse before you get better, have you told your therapist? Emdr sbould only be done by experienced practitioners not some noob who has just passed their exams or some shit. Anyway I wish you all the best, I do believe you can improve as you have thd exact cause of it and know where to start, and so should you.

In Topic: 18 year old struggling

02 April 2019 - 07:54 AM

Hi, I have always had anxiety and was diagnosed with panic disorder when I was 13 years old. Before Christmas I finally felt like I had gotten a hold of my anxiety and was enjoying life. However I had a bad panic attack on Christmas Eve and multiple throughout Christmas day and I've been feel the after effects for months now. Ever since new years I haven't felt like myself at all. I can still recognise who I am, where I am and who is around me but I just don't feel connected. It's as if my whole sense of self has just gone out the window. It's been 3 months nearly 4 and I'm scared that I'm going to be this way forever and I'm never going to feel like me again. I keep having existential thoughts all the time and I just want it all to go away and I want to live my life like before. I constantly feel like I'm going crazy and I'm finding it really hard to even leave my house. I also keep having a fear that one day I'll wake up and forget who I am or my family and it's really hard to deal with. I keep fearing that I have other kinds of illnesses that it can't just be anxiety, like I keep fearing I have psychosis or something like that even though I know that's impossible as I have no hallucinations or anything along those lines. I am hoping that there is someone out there who can help me feel less alone and more sane. How did you get out of this? Will I ever feel like me again?

It's early days but one of the best things you can do is stop saying will this happen, will that happen. All that does it stress you out and bring on anxiety, it sounds like Dp to me, nothing more nothing less.

Best thing you can do at this point is realise it's temporary, believe it even, and go forward, staying at home doesn't make it better imo. Socialise if you can, go for a jog, also better nutrition may help, doing something that requires your attention is better than sitting around thinking about what's happening isn't it?

You got this, and always try to ground yourself if you feel anxious were ever you are, even in public.