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When is your Dp the strongest?

05 November 2018 - 11:27 AM

Just a question I’d like to gain some insight on. I’ve read about what people here say and it seems to be the opposite for me.

Here’s just a quick example of some of my symptoms

1. My DP is strongest in AM - like 7 am as soon as I wake up. I used to grab the bed and hold onto it for dear life / although now it is easier to get up... but still - it’s the strongest when I wake.

2. I drive an hour and 10 minutes to work every day. It’s usually okay when I drive - but if I look down to grab my coffee for instance and look up - I get tunnel vision and start to have symptoms of a panic attack out of nowhere (I do drink coffee everyday) almost as if focusing on the coffee and looking up at all traffic etc is a huge stimuli reaction that gives me immediate panic (best way to describe)

3. I get stuck in these thought patterns - even in the middle of something (who am I?, etc) even when busy at work

4. Social situations actually calm me down. If I’m in panic mode, talking with others actually helps it a lot - even if I’m a group of people. If I’m alone - it’s the worst.

5. I never had any abuse and my childhood was great - although I did have one traumatic event with the loss of a loved one.

6. I did not ever experience DP during childhood it may have started mildly around 20-21, but my nervous breakdown this July and August put it in the worst state

7. I am a recovering opiate addict. 67 days today. I quit my use because of DP during my breakdown and checked into rehab.

8. I currently take: 100 mg Naltrexone, 50 mg Lamictal, 1200 mg Gabapentin and 50 mg Seroquel

9. I usually sleep 8-10 hours per night

10. I’ve had an EEG done and waiting on results. I do get pressure and pain on the top left side of my head - but my MRI was fine

11. I fear drug use, extreme financial challenges and an underlying anxiety disorder contributed

12. I am starting emdr this week or next.

13. I have no problem going out with my wife and kids, going to work, going to events, etc

14. I do occasionally and more then often get this HUGE fog that feels like it encompasses my head - it impairs my cognitive ability to think, act, resonate, and causes perceptional and visual changes (aka like DP fog) - think that movie “The Fog” that swallows the whole town

15. I can get ready in front of the mirror some days and not even bat an eye and other days I stare at myself and ruminate

This is just some things about what I deal with.

I don’t really have existential thoughts (I’m catholic and understand my role here on earth, no racing thoughts, and until my nervous breakdown (horrible pannic attacks - called 911 twice and breakthrough DP)

I went through many changes recently and found myself in severe financial strife + addiction.

Nights are the best to me... when it’s dark and I’m off work in the house. My anxiety is very low.

This is kind of my story. I know we are all different

Lamictal/Lamotrigine :-) + more!

26 October 2018 - 07:57 PM

Just started lamictal 25 MG and will be titrating up 25 mg per week to the therapeutic dose (or whatever dose works really)

I take it at night with seroquel and the best I feel all day is the hour/two when I take it.

I also take 100 mg Neltrexone daily as well (might as well hit all the areas at once!) hahaah

I also read an awesome commment one of our contributors posted about nystatin and the gut/brain axis. Will add that in as well.

I don’t really care what cures IT.... but I’ll be damned if I don’t try and hit everything with as much firepower at once.

I’ve been on the HIGH dose neltrexone for two-three weeks so to early to tell.

Have a neurology appointment and an eeg on Monday - seeing if a temperal lobe issue. ✊🏼

Who knows and who cares. I’m also 57 days clean from a dangerous oxycodone habit too (7-8 years @ 160 mg/day).... so I attribute “this” whatever it’s called to saving my life- but I’d rather learn some awesome coping mechs and use some medicine as well.

Just wanted to drop a line in treatment section and fresh it up..... give some HOPE <3

We all have WONDERFUL lives to live....

Peace, happiness and love


Naltrexone hcl 50 mg

26 September 2018 - 12:35 PM

Hello all,

I am a recovering opiate addict who had dp/dr due to using prescription pills.

I am in the process of acquiring 50 mg naltrexone pills now while in recovery.

I think the theories around dysregulation of the opiate receptors is to blame.

I will be following this thread with all of my updates.

Ps...not Naloxone it’s Neltrexone and please don’t use suboxone for anything - it only made mine worse.



Curious if I can be of some help

26 September 2018 - 12:28 PM

Hello all,

Lurker for a month and just joined. Essentially - I am coming off a 6 year habit of Norco and oxy (recovering addict) It’s almost been 30 days for me. I didn’t wake up one day with DP/DR nor did I have it initiated by smoking marijuana - which I have done many, many times.

My dp/dr started when I took a dose of my pain pills in the middle of August. I went outside for a cigarette and my hands did not feel as if they were mine. Over the next 1-2 weeks I was obsessed with this and think I may have created this based on opiate usage which would give way to some of the theories here.

I believe that Naltrexone hcl will help and I have already asked my dr to prescribe. I was on subutex (suboxone without the neltrexone) and it made it so much worse.

While I don’t have any existential thoughts - the picture of the man looking through eyes is how I feel. I don’t feel myself and I constantly ask myself “who I am”

I believe opiate receptors are to blame

my habit was at its peak 150 mg/day oxy until I went in to treatment.

Dp/dr saved my life. But now - I’m looking to part ways with IT.

Hope to talk to some of you soon.