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PhilmonPera

Member Since 18 Sep 2018
Offline Last Active Jul 16 2020 12:14 AM
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#619544 Have had DP for over 40 years...

Posted by PhilmonPera on 14 July 2020 - 10:34 PM

My DP started late one night in the summer of 1977 after I smoked some pot after finishing the late shift at work. I wasn't a regular pot smoker - as a matter of fact this was probably the second or third time I tried smoking it. The feeling I had while high was very unpleasant. I had an intense fear that I wouldn't feel 'normal' again.
 
That was over 40 years ago and that feeling still exists. Over the years I've learned how to live with it. In the beginning when this happened to me there was no explanation for what It was. Every doctor I went to diagnosed it as anxiety and treated me along those lines. It wasn't until the Internet became popular that I found out I wasn't alone and that this 'feeling' had a name.
 
I don't spend much time thinking about my Depersonalization anymore, but I would love to feel life without it again. My latest attempt at escaping from my DP was ART therapy. Like all of the other forms of therapy or medications, it had no effect.
 
I'd love to hear if anyone has had success dealing with this scary state of mind caused by pot smoking.