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Lost the ability to visualize memories and images in my mind

18 April 2019 - 10:06 PM

My dpdr has been the result of a traumatic experience, and last week I did an EMDR therapy session with my therapist. I was able to see the memory vividly and sit through it decently well. Problem is after the session i find it near impossible to conjure any image in my brain whatsoever. I became more numb and now dont feel any emotion when recollecting on past memories. I'm worried it'll never come back, although since i was able to do it before it must be reversible I hope. I think my brain went into overprotective mode and made me feel even more dp'd than i already do causing my mind to be visually blank. I think it's also trying to make it hard for me to visualize memories in fear of me reliving my trauma again. I'm completely lost and it seems to be getting worse by the day. What should I do? Has anyone lost the ability to visualize or it looks hazy and unclear? Has it came back? Please, I need answers, I want my life to go back to normal...please.


Weird time perception, anyone relate?

20 May 2018 - 06:45 PM

Lately I've been obsessing over the passing of time and it it's really fucking up my brain. I think about how the present really only lasts a second before it's just a memory in my brain. I feel like I'm not perceiving time in a linear way anymore and I feel like right now only exists and past events like 5 or 10 minutes ago feel like they never happened. I think about all the events that happened today or yesterday and they just all feel so unreal like they never happened. I hope I'm making sense because it's hard to explain. I get irrational thoughts like if I just popped into existence this very second along with all my memories. 

 

Does anyone else have experience with these thoughts or feelings? I've read that weird time perception is semi-common with people who have dp and dr. I feel like I'm going crazy, if anyone could relate it would make me feel a lot better.