The annoying thing is, I already got and recovered from DP/DR and now i'm getting it again. No lie it took me 4 years to feel like I was 90% better. I know that it will probably get better again but every time I slip into one of these states I just get this feeling like its different. Like something else more sinister is going on and i'm going bat shit. I also get frustrated that this is MY LIFE and I haven't been in control since this all started in 7th grade. I haven't felt REAL in so damn long and I cant take it anymore. Im missing out on so much. Its my senior year now, I just started dating a drop-dead beautiful girlfriend, I have good test scores and my college applications are looking good, I just got my license. This is supposed to be and it would be, the happiest time of my life so far. Yet I cant even fucking experience it. Im trapped in this psychotic bubble. I get so scared of how i'm feeling especially in class that I think i'm going to just drop dead. Im also afraid to tell my GF about this, I was this chill, anxiety-free guy ever since she met me 6 months ago and only about a week ago did I have this DP/DR relapse. Now i'm super paranoid and I basically mentally challenged.
These are my symptoms:
-Thick brain fog (Like I legit cant think sometimes)
-Distant feeling (Like I cant connect to any of my surrounding, like nothing is real and my consciousness is fading)
-Braindead (sometimes I get so zoned out I feel like i'm about to become unresponsive and drop into a coma or something)
-Anxiety (Im constantly afraid of my psychiatric situation, i'm afraid i'm going crazy)
-Short/Long Memory Loss (Wanna know what I ate for breakfast this morning? Forget about it)
Hey brother, listen its really hard to give advice, but i'm going to try my best. YOU have mentioned nothing about having delusions or auditory/visual hallucinations, so dont worry you're not going crazy and youre not going to! I totally feel you with those symptoms, Ive had those exact ones, and some were even worse(in the post). YOU NEED TO TELL YOUR GF EVERYTHING dont fear judgement and if she thinks youre crazy maybe you dont need to have her in your life. You need a good support system! Try not to focus on your symptoms much, just check in on them if that makes sense. YOU need to find something to do that you love! I hope i helped