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PanicPanda93

Member Since 12 Aug 2017
Offline Last Active Feb 12 2019 12:33 PM
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How Does Anyone Work?

15 August 2017 - 10:15 PM

I'm pretty nervous because I have to get a job in 2 months, or I lose everything Iv worked so hard to get.

How has anyone been able to keep their job and how do you keep from having a anxiety attack from DP?

How Does Anyone Work?

15 August 2017 - 10:14 PM

I'm pretty nervous because I have to get a job in 2 months, or I lose everything Iv worked so hard to get.

How has anyone been able to keep their job and n

DP fears

14 August 2017 - 11:14 PM

Hey everyone, Panda here.

Feeling well today, been feeling pretty good these last few days. Taking care of myself and keeping my stress levels low, that seems to help.

I find when I have an anxiety attack that's when the DP hits, takes a few hours/a few days to go away. Really depends on the severity of it.

Lately iv noticed that DP comes when I'm talking to someone or a bunch of people at once. So I'm thinking my DP is triggered from being slightly overwhelmed. It's terrible, can't talk to someone without feeling like I'm floating away. I need to find a job in a month or so and I'm super nervous for that, because it requires talking to people.

What my fear is, I'm terrified I'm gonna feel DP severely and that it will never go away, that I'll suffer from this for the rest of my life.

Somedays I'm so scared to talk to people, but I do it, because it needs to be done. Sometimes I feel fine, really depends on who I'm talking with, it's so strange. :(

Just have a lot on my mind right now. Sorry for rambling. Xo

Really Bad Year, Drug Induced.

12 August 2017 - 04:26 PM

Hey everyone! Sucks were all feeling this way, but I hope for quick healing for all of us!

Iv always been a sensitive person, pick up on energy and emotions around me. Picked up drinking and smoking weed, drank heavily for about 2 years as I tried to cope with everything going on.

It all went down hill this year, just bad stuff after bad stuff, never could get a break. Even my vacation I was so excited for was ruined because of anxiety and upset stomach. Spent all of the time in the hotel room.

I slowly stopped my drinking because I started feeling "weird" and "out of it" at my work, but it'd go away in an hour so I didn't think much of it.

In June I got a hold of some other drugs, I just needed a break. Anything to help with the pain.

Well sadly, that didn't help. I had a terrible reaction and the next day I woke up still feeling "high" I was so terrified I was never going to feel the same way again.

That's when I started getting severe anxiety attacks, one after the other, daily. Weeks went by and I thought killing myself was the only way to end all of this.

July.1st, I ended up in the ER because I didn't know what was going on and I felt like I was trapped in my own head and hurting myself was the only way out. It was the worst attack of my life.

Iv lost so much these last few months because of the anxiety and DP. I had to quit my job because it got so bad.

I'm seeking help and doing everything to do it get better, but some days are worse than most. Some days I'll feel fine then all of a sudden I'll feel DP/anxious, it's the worst. It feels like nothing triggers them, but they still show up!

I'm so depressed because I miss my old life, Iv lost myself and so much because of this.

2 months have gone by and I feel like I wasted it crying, thinking of suicide, not doing things I use to enjoy because everything and anything triggers an anxiety attack/DP, it's the worst feeling ever.

I just want this all to end.

Iv been sober from alcohol and weed for 7 weeks now! I'm really proud of myself, I'm trying to heal, trying to get my life back.

I guess I'm just looking for support from other people who feel this way, because I have no one and my therapist doesn't get it either. I just feel so alone.

Thanks for reading, here's to healing! xo