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#486026 I just can't do this anymore

Posted by PanicPanda93 on 15 August 2017 - 01:20 AM

It's been a few days, I hope it has gotten easier for you. Please stay strong. xo

#486010 Really Interesting Post on Gender Dysphoria!

Posted by PanicPanda93 on 14 August 2017 - 11:49 PM

Hmm, interesting. Thanks for sharing :)

#485970 For the ladies

Posted by PanicPanda93 on 14 August 2017 - 10:38 PM

Yep, I get higher anxiety levels during my time of the month and then with anxiety attacks comes feeling DP. My whole body hates me I guess. Lmao can't even have a break during a painful crampy time.

#485826 Looking for some hope

Posted by PanicPanda93 on 14 August 2017 - 01:32 AM

Sorry to hear this!

One thing that helps me is leaving my apartment and going for a long walk, some days I even go jump of a tall rock into the lake. Maybe doing safe, "risky" things might help re-ground you, remind you that you're alive! :)

Also everytime I feel crappy, I jump into the shower and put it on cold. It helps trigger your brain thinking the bodies dieing so it will try to focus on keeping you alive. Idk, there's a bunch of research on taking ice cold showers or placing ice bags on certain parts of the body that helps with anxiety.

All the best! :) (also I watch a bunch of youtube videos about DP, doesn't make me feel so alone and that there is hope!)

#485506 Really Bad Year, Drug Induced.

Posted by PanicPanda93 on 12 August 2017 - 04:26 PM

Hey everyone! Sucks were all feeling this way, but I hope for quick healing for all of us!

Iv always been a sensitive person, pick up on energy and emotions around me. Picked up drinking and smoking weed, drank heavily for about 2 years as I tried to cope with everything going on.

It all went down hill this year, just bad stuff after bad stuff, never could get a break. Even my vacation I was so excited for was ruined because of anxiety and upset stomach. Spent all of the time in the hotel room.

I slowly stopped my drinking because I started feeling "weird" and "out of it" at my work, but it'd go away in an hour so I didn't think much of it.

In June I got a hold of some other drugs, I just needed a break. Anything to help with the pain.

Well sadly, that didn't help. I had a terrible reaction and the next day I woke up still feeling "high" I was so terrified I was never going to feel the same way again.

That's when I started getting severe anxiety attacks, one after the other, daily. Weeks went by and I thought killing myself was the only way to end all of this.

July.1st, I ended up in the ER because I didn't know what was going on and I felt like I was trapped in my own head and hurting myself was the only way out. It was the worst attack of my life.

Iv lost so much these last few months because of the anxiety and DP. I had to quit my job because it got so bad.

I'm seeking help and doing everything to do it get better, but some days are worse than most. Some days I'll feel fine then all of a sudden I'll feel DP/anxious, it's the worst. It feels like nothing triggers them, but they still show up!

I'm so depressed because I miss my old life, Iv lost myself and so much because of this.

2 months have gone by and I feel like I wasted it crying, thinking of suicide, not doing things I use to enjoy because everything and anything triggers an anxiety attack/DP, it's the worst feeling ever.

I just want this all to end.

Iv been sober from alcohol and weed for 7 weeks now! I'm really proud of myself, I'm trying to heal, trying to get my life back.

I guess I'm just looking for support from other people who feel this way, because I have no one and my therapist doesn't get it either. I just feel so alone.

Thanks for reading, here's to healing! xo