I remember having symtoms of this horrible condition when i was about nine or ten years old. I was a bit of a nervous wreck as a kid and can remember refusing to go on school trips and generally just preferring to stay at home. I didn't dwell too much on the feelings I was having at the time as people kept on reassuring me that I was just suffering from panic attacks and they would go with age. As time went on however the feelings didn't recede and I can remember reciting my families names compulsively to myself as I was convinced I was literally losing my memory, nervy times indeed... The sensations did then seem to completely disappear for a while during high school and I was, for the most part, a regular functioning lad with normal worries and more than manageable levels of anxiety. This all changed just under three years ago when I lost my Dad to cancer at the age of 45, and the familiar feelings of unfamiliarity came flooding back and rendered me, once again, unable to function or enjoy life like I used to. I've been in and out of various mental health services but I seem to be resistant to all forms of therapy, I'm hoping that this community can provide a place where I can retreat to if things get too bad. Having said all this I can honestly say that I am still determined to find a cure. I have had this before and it went away so there must be a way out, any tips on coping with bad days and staying positive would be greatly appreciated, thank you for reading if you've made it this far!
"there must have been a door there in the wall when I came in..."- Pink Floyd, The wall - The trial