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#485090 Does this damn intense vision go away!!?

Posted by Chris_Liverpool on 11 August 2017 - 07:32 AM

I can recall my vision going green for long periods, which was uncomfortable at first and did last a long while (can't remember how long)... plus when i get really anxious things look flat or 2 dimensional... like when Will off the inbetweeners swallowed the pot and had the freakout on stage! The common denominator in all cases is anxiety, a bitch to get under controll but i've done it in the past, and i'm generally quite wired haha... The thing that keeps me going is that no matter how bad or anxious or confused i have gotten in the past it has never lasted and I'm 100%certain  it never will. hang in there man 

#485082 Hi all, just giving this a whirl!!

Posted by Chris_Liverpool on 11 August 2017 - 07:22 AM

Hi Phantasm!

Welcome to the floyd-a-thon! yeah that song in particular has a marked effect on me, i first listened to it when i was about 10 in my Dad's car, and i always remember the line "and then one day you find, ten years have got behind you, no one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun!" when I turned 20 I heard the lyrics again and realised 10 years had literally got behind me! I now skip the track altogether hahaha 

#484354 Relapsed

Posted by Chris_Liverpool on 09 August 2017 - 05:51 AM

Hi seven 777

I'm really sorry to hear about your current situation it sounds absolutely awful, but not unusual. After reading through lots of posts on this site I was amazed to see how many people feel as hopeless as I have felt in the past. When i relapsed about two years ago i couldn't see the point either , i was exausted and unwilling to do anything that might trigger a panic attack (which was basically everything). I've had spells where i couldnt go out for long periods and its the most depresing thing i've experienced. During one of my reclusive spells i drank a lot and got myself into a bit of bother whilst pissed, this drew the attention of other family members that i didnt see very often. My cousin dragged me to work with him in his shop every day for 4 months where i had severe anxiety and daily panic attacks, but slowly they faded away and the feeling of depersonalisation somewhat went away too. The point of all this is that something that i could never of imagined making a difference actually did, and something will for you too. I think in our heart of hearts most of us on this website will have contemplated the unthinkable from time to time, I know I have. But I'm thankful that I didn't give in and you will be too. I look forward to hearing your recovery story and all the amazing advice you're going to be able to give others on this forum, please contact if you fancy a chat.

#484306 Where is everyone from?

Posted by Chris_Liverpool on 09 August 2017 - 02:57 AM

Liverpool, England.. As my very imaginative username suggests!

#484050 Hi all, just giving this a whirl!!

Posted by Chris_Liverpool on 08 August 2017 - 10:43 AM

Hi all! 

I remember having symtoms of this horrible condition when i was about nine or ten years old. I was a bit of a nervous wreck as a kid and can remember refusing to go on school trips and generally just preferring to stay at home. I didn't dwell too much on the feelings I was having at the time as people kept on reassuring me that I was just suffering from panic attacks and they would go with age. As time went on however the feelings didn't recede and I can remember reciting my families names compulsively to myself as I was convinced I was literally losing my memory, nervy times indeed... The sensations did then seem to completely disappear for a while during high school and I was, for the most part, a regular functioning lad with normal worries and more than manageable levels of anxiety. This all changed just under three years ago when I lost my Dad to cancer at the age of 45, and the familiar feelings of unfamiliarity came flooding back and rendered me, once again, unable to function or enjoy life like I used to. I've been in and out of various mental health services but I seem to be resistant to all forms of therapy, I'm hoping that this community can provide a place where I can retreat to if things get too bad. Having said all this I can honestly say that I am still determined to find a cure. I have had this before and it went away so there must be a way out, any tips on coping with bad days and staying positive would be greatly appreciated, thank you for reading if you've made it this far! 

"there must have been a door there in the wall when I came in..."- Pink Floyd, The wall - The trial