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#619468 Brain is locked in constant fear mode

Posted by Grindelwald on 12 July 2020 - 01:03 AM

Yeah, sounds like it could be DP. I know the feeling.. Ty to reduce stress and anxiety as much as possible. Try Theanine or some other supplements, and get as much sleep as you can. Do NOT be afraid to see a doctor. 

#619466 I'm gonna give you the God's honest trust about recovery

Posted by Grindelwald on 12 July 2020 - 12:58 AM

Recovery cannot happen until you don't understand DP anymore. That is the reality. You have to recover and almost "forget" what DP was like. Ok, maybe not "forget", but at the very least, not be affected by DP symptoms anymore. It's not easy and it takes time. But it is possible. I've done it, twice now. For those who have suffered DP due to drugs, the best remedy is time. 


For those for whom this is not the case, I'm not the right person to talk to. I have no experience with non-drug induced DP.  None. I'm sorry. But if your DP is drug induced, my best suggestion is time, and it wouldn't hurt to see a doctor and tell him you have bad anxiety. There is no reason to mention DP. The reason is because anxiety is the main catalyst in DP. There is something else that I know causes DP, but I can't explain it. From a pure medical perspective, treat it as a bad case of anxiety. Do NOT be afraid to consult a medical professional. 


My name is Drew by the way. 

#600580 I am almost recovered

Posted by Grindelwald on 10 May 2019 - 08:20 PM

Funny you mention dreams I also dream vividly every night and hate it, been like this for many months. I would love to just fall into that deep, dreamless slumber I used to get. I think it is something to do with the anxious mindset. The worst thing is I'm not normal in my dreams. I have DP in my dreams, endless nightmare

I used to hate vivid dreams too. I’d start questioning reality when I was awake.

#596358 doing better, but I feel like I can’t forget about the feeling.

Posted by Grindelwald on 01 February 2019 - 12:54 AM

Yes, it's like the mind is reluctant to let go of it entirely in case you might really be in danger and it won't take any chances with your safety.


When we can't just dismiss it or distract ourselves, I've found it really helpful to actively correct irrational thoughts and fears, and you can use reasoning, or be blunt about it. So if you have a crazy thought or fear, you might say, "that has never actually happened, and never will. It's fiction, and just my imagination," or simply, "that's bullshit!"


Like all these things it takes repetition, but if you are telling yourself something which is objectively true, it carries weight.   

This is a good answer. You get it.

#595424 Am i dreaming?

Posted by Grindelwald on 11 January 2019 - 06:46 PM

Pinch your nose and try to inhale. If you can’t, you’re not dreaming.

#595372 anybody have any positives from dp?

Posted by Grindelwald on 11 January 2019 - 01:37 AM

This is one experience in life I can unequivocally say has offered me no positives whatsoever

#595368 Sleep Apnea

Posted by Grindelwald on 11 January 2019 - 01:25 AM

Anybody knows if severe sleep apnea can trigger DR ?

Will be glad if somebody can tell me more
Thanks !

No. Maybe this could exacerbate DP, but definitely not cause it.

#594418 How I got out of Existential OCD + DP/DR (Solipsism)

Posted by Grindelwald on 24 December 2018 - 01:21 AM

Thanks for posting. Not a lady, but I can offer advice based on my own experiences.


Acceptance is the key. I smoked weed a lot in the past. I had a really bad panic attack one day while high. I put it behind me and continued to smoke. Weed wasn't ever quite the same after that, but never got DP from it. One day, couple months later, I was drunk out of my mind and high to boot, ended up in the ER, after I came to I was DPed. DPed pretty bad at first, but recovered 100% in about a month's time. Thought it would be safe to smoke again. WRONG! Got DP again and lasted well over a year the second time. But recovered again. I know if I smoke weed again I'll probably be DPed forever as a result. Do not ever think that you're 100% recovered. Because you're not. You'll never be able to smoke weed again. Or eat edibles. I never had a quality edible. Guess I should be thankful for that. From what I hear they're way more potent than just smoking. So absolutely avoid at all costs. 


As for solipsism, fuck that. I've been thought it. Never thought I was imagining everything, but what did bug me was the thought that everyone else could be a "philosophical zombie" (google it) or that life was somehow a trick that wasn't what appeared to be, and that reality was some sort of illusory cycle that would gradually move toward my earliest memory without me realizing it. That sounds insane, but for some reason it made too much sense internally when I was DPed. Sounds ludicrous now.

During the last days of my DP, I kind of "connected" with the world again. Don't know if others experienced anything similar, but from my perspective, you're never truly cured from DP until you "fall in love" with the world again. I know the world sucks right now, but that's not really what I mean. Go out and experience the beauty of the universe. Once you're questioning if there's an afterlife, and hoping that there is, you're almost home free.  

#594414 I am a doctor from Serbia, recovered from DP

Posted by Grindelwald on 24 December 2018 - 01:01 AM

I can speak of weed. There's something about this drug that is not right. Once you panic hard enough while high on this drug, there's no going back. You can recover with time, but you'll relapse if you ever use it again. Stay away from it.

#591570 Can't handle that I'm a living organism

Posted by Grindelwald on 14 October 2018 - 01:16 AM

Idk, seems like pretty typical DP to me. Considering the fact that out of the billions of planets out there, this is the only one we know for sure has life. I used to have these thoughts. The fact the I’m alive is just because of the fact that given an infinite amount of time and possibilies, the scenario of intelligent life existing must occur at some point, and thus here I am. Or should I say, here we are. Do not worry. Many people have these thoughts.
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#584698 Drunk

Posted by Grindelwald on 15 June 2018 - 11:57 PM

I think I’ve indisputably recovered from DP. I am very drunk right now and have no adverse effects. There have been many times where I have felt DP free, but had it recur after drinking a lot. The last couple times I have felt the same drunk I felt before my DP. I think it’s over for good. I don’t think I could safely smoke weed again (I say that while drunk and my confidence is super high), but I am confident my DP is no more. I am so happy.

Mods, feel free to move to recovery stories if you deem appropriate.

#578082 is this dp?

Posted by Grindelwald on 14 May 2018 - 01:54 PM



does this sound like dp?

Not particularly. Not a doctor though. You may have some kind of social anxiety though.

#562633 Can we ever smoke weed again

Posted by Grindelwald on 16 March 2018 - 12:41 PM

Sure you can, if you want your DP back tenfold.

#558266 Weed

Posted by Grindelwald on 27 February 2018 - 02:43 PM

The only type of weed that I can see helping DP is one with ZERO THC.

#556290 Fully recovered then smoked weed my story and a warning

Posted by Grindelwald on 17 February 2018 - 07:44 PM

man this is the one thing i fucking hate about dp is the hole not being able to consume cannabis ever again , shit gonna be legalized here soon in canada and will open up tons of jobs , ive always wanted to work in the industry but now thats not going to work out if i cant be around cannabis any more its fucking brutal



Yes.... it's so depressing. I loved weed and literally planned my life around it. Now the smell just makes me sick. So depressing.