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#626994 Confession.

Posted by Grindelwald on 21 November 2020 - 01:37 AM

I only post here when I'm drunk. I try to be helpful, and I try to post rationally. But I never visit this site when sober. I have recovered and I can only come back here if I'm under the influence. 


I do not recommend drinking as a solution. I am only doing so because I've recovered. And although I've recovered from DP, which was absolute hell and the lowest point of my life, my life still isn't all roses. I am lonely and don't make a whole lot of money. But I felt I had to get that off my chest. 

#626696 Ayahuasca cured me

Posted by Grindelwald on 01 November 2020 - 01:09 AM

If you want my opinion...


DP is a very unique condition in that it is ENITRELY in the mind. There is a philosophical conundrum called the mind-body problem. For those who understand this problem (which should be the vast majority of us), you'll know that DP really only affects the 'mind' part. Yes, that can bleed over into physical problems, but the mind is the root cause. Because of this, certain psychoactive drugs can be hit or miss. If you have a good trip, you can correct yourself. About 75% of the time you'll have a bad one. If you have a bad trip, it can f you up forever. IMO, it's not worse the risk. You can improve without psychoactive drugs. I got DP from weed and I don't think I'd ever go back to it. Just because it worked for you doesn't mean it would for someone else. Stay away from drugs. The odds are you'll regret it. 


I wish I could explain this better, but there isn't a good way to explain the mind-body problem. Either you get it or you don't. 

#620612 1st post

Posted by Grindelwald on 18 August 2020 - 04:50 PM

37 years... can't even imagine. How did you get it and what symptoms do you have?

#620542 Help, doubting my experience itself? (Crazy feeling)

Posted by Grindelwald on 17 August 2020 - 08:37 AM

Yeah pretty sure most here can relate. They’re just bogus thoughts fueled by anxiety.

#620500 Endocannabinoid Overload

Posted by Grindelwald on 16 August 2020 - 07:39 PM

I may try CBD oil. I think I have occipital neuralgia and it may help with that.

#619468 Brain is locked in constant fear mode

Posted by Grindelwald on 12 July 2020 - 01:03 AM

Yeah, sounds like it could be DP. I know the feeling.. Ty to reduce stress and anxiety as much as possible. Try Theanine or some other supplements, and get as much sleep as you can. Do NOT be afraid to see a doctor. 

#600580 I am almost recovered

Posted by Grindelwald on 10 May 2019 - 08:20 PM

Funny you mention dreams I also dream vividly every night and hate it, been like this for many months. I would love to just fall into that deep, dreamless slumber I used to get. I think it is something to do with the anxious mindset. The worst thing is I'm not normal in my dreams. I have DP in my dreams, endless nightmare

I used to hate vivid dreams too. I’d start questioning reality when I was awake.

#596358 doing better, but I feel like I can’t forget about the feeling.

Posted by Grindelwald on 01 February 2019 - 12:54 AM

Yes, it's like the mind is reluctant to let go of it entirely in case you might really be in danger and it won't take any chances with your safety.


When we can't just dismiss it or distract ourselves, I've found it really helpful to actively correct irrational thoughts and fears, and you can use reasoning, or be blunt about it. So if you have a crazy thought or fear, you might say, "that has never actually happened, and never will. It's fiction, and just my imagination," or simply, "that's bullshit!"


Like all these things it takes repetition, but if you are telling yourself something which is objectively true, it carries weight.   

This is a good answer. You get it.

#595372 anybody have any positives from dp?

Posted by Grindelwald on 11 January 2019 - 01:37 AM

This is one experience in life I can unequivocally say has offered me no positives whatsoever

#595368 Sleep Apnea

Posted by Grindelwald on 11 January 2019 - 01:25 AM

Anybody knows if severe sleep apnea can trigger DR ?

Will be glad if somebody can tell me more
Thanks !

No. Maybe this could exacerbate DP, but definitely not cause it.

#594418 How I got out of Existential OCD + DP/DR (Solipsism)

Posted by Grindelwald on 24 December 2018 - 01:21 AM

Thanks for posting. Not a lady, but I can offer advice based on my own experiences.


Acceptance is the key. I smoked weed a lot in the past. I had a really bad panic attack one day while high. I put it behind me and continued to smoke. Weed wasn't ever quite the same after that, but never got DP from it. One day, couple months later, I was drunk out of my mind and high to boot, ended up in the ER, after I came to I was DPed. DPed pretty bad at first, but recovered 100% in about a month's time. Thought it would be safe to smoke again. WRONG! Got DP again and lasted well over a year the second time. But recovered again. I know if I smoke weed again I'll probably be DPed forever as a result. Do not ever think that you're 100% recovered. Because you're not. You'll never be able to smoke weed again. Or eat edibles. I never had a quality edible. Guess I should be thankful for that. From what I hear they're way more potent than just smoking. So absolutely avoid at all costs. 


As for solipsism, fuck that. I've been thought it. Never thought I was imagining everything, but what did bug me was the thought that everyone else could be a "philosophical zombie" (google it) or that life was somehow a trick that wasn't what appeared to be, and that reality was some sort of illusory cycle that would gradually move toward my earliest memory without me realizing it. That sounds insane, but for some reason it made too much sense internally when I was DPed. Sounds ludicrous now.

During the last days of my DP, I kind of "connected" with the world again. Don't know if others experienced anything similar, but from my perspective, you're never truly cured from DP until you "fall in love" with the world again. I know the world sucks right now, but that's not really what I mean. Go out and experience the beauty of the universe. Once you're questioning if there's an afterlife, and hoping that there is, you're almost home free.  

#594414 I am a doctor from Serbia, recovered from DP

Posted by Grindelwald on 24 December 2018 - 01:01 AM

I can speak of weed. There's something about this drug that is not right. Once you panic hard enough while high on this drug, there's no going back. You can recover with time, but you'll relapse if you ever use it again. Stay away from it.

#591570 Can't handle that I'm a living organism

Posted by Grindelwald on 14 October 2018 - 01:16 AM

Idk, seems like pretty typical DP to me. Considering the fact that out of the billions of planets out there, this is the only one we know for sure has life. I used to have these thoughts. The fact the I’m alive is just because of the fact that given an infinite amount of time and possibilies, the scenario of intelligent life existing must occur at some point, and thus here I am. Or should I say, here we are. Do not worry. Many people have these thoughts.
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#584698 Drunk

Posted by Grindelwald on 15 June 2018 - 11:57 PM

I think I’ve indisputably recovered from DP. I am very drunk right now and have no adverse effects. There have been many times where I have felt DP free, but had it recur after drinking a lot. The last couple times I have felt the same drunk I felt before my DP. I think it’s over for good. I don’t think I could safely smoke weed again (I say that while drunk and my confidence is super high), but I am confident my DP is no more. I am so happy.

Mods, feel free to move to recovery stories if you deem appropriate.

#578082 is this dp?

Posted by Grindelwald on 14 May 2018 - 01:54 PM



does this sound like dp?

Not particularly. Not a doctor though. You may have some kind of social anxiety though.