Kiwi89

Trying to taper off but feeling super horrible. Extreme fatigue, much worse DP, restlessness/akathisia, etc. I thought tapering this med would be no biggie but I think I was very wrong. I’ve only cut out a tiny bit so far but I can tell my nervous system is going nuts. Anyone have any advice or experience with this? Really suffering here

Alcohol used to energize me and make feel more like socializing. Nowadays, alcohol just turns off my brain even more and makes it even harder to talk. Anyone else relate?

If so, how was your experience? I just started it today and feel slightly more nervous but it could be coffee or just all in my head.

I've had bad DP/blank mind for a while now and have been on clomipramine which has helped my mood and anxiety a bit but not really the cognitive symptoms. I tried seroquel recently for one night and it knocked me out for 15 hours and I felt weird and depressed when I woke up. I haven't tried it again since. Then I tried a med called Hydroxizine and when it kicked in, I felt more spaced out and anxious (not sleepy at all) and ever since, I have been on another level of DP. I feel unconscious like I've lost the small amount of awareness of my self and my surroundings that I had. I'm a mess and barely getting through each day. I'm terrified that I won't go back to my normal, more manageable level of DP that I had before I tried the two new meds. Does anyone have any advice or at least believe that I will go back to my normal baseline? Really worried right now....

The closest diagnosis term i've read that I can relate to is Akathisia. It's like your body is tired and wants to rest but you can't get 100% comfortable. Like you need to keep moving, but when you get up and move around then you just want to lay down again. When I'm having this feeling at it's worst, the blank mind feeling is at it's peak. It's doesn't even necessarily feel like anxiety, just restlessness and agitation. Anhedonia is at it's peak during this too. The only thing that been able to help is clomipramine, melatonin, forcing myself to exercise even when i'm weak, and making sure I get enough sleep. It's not bad all the time and a lot of times I can be blank but still comfortable laying down, playing video games or working on music on my computer. 

 

Anyways, can anyone else relate? I've had this ever since I withdrew from Klonopin four years ago. I took Hydroxizine for the first time last night and the restlessness is REALLY bad today.