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#576346 Do you feel like you can't really see but see?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 07 May 2018 - 03:21 AM

Yes! It’s gotten much better but I’ve had this so many times and when I first got DP this was really bad. Like the image that your eyes are seeing won’t fully go into your brain. Like logically you know what color something you’re looking at is but you can’t “feel” it or something. Impossible to explain accurately right?

#565369 Being Depersonalized while having a flu

Posted by Kiwi89 on 24 March 2018 - 08:00 PM

Getting sick always exacerbates my symptoms too! Weird that there’s any connection between it

#563193 why does this cause cognitive issues?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 17 March 2018 - 12:24 PM

I have the exact same thing with not being able to follow movies or tv as well^ I guess it’s more common than I thought

#557786 why does this cause cognitive issues?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 26 February 2018 - 03:29 AM

That would explain why alcohol makes it worse then, I know alcohol increases my DP/Blank mind state A LOT. I went from being a very social drinker, to feeling anti-social when I drink. 


I'm glad you brought up this topic, i'd love to hear everyone elses thoughts. Cognitive problems are my main symptom. 

#551730 Does anyone else have an inner restlessness?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 02 February 2018 - 01:14 PM

Yes! It’s like restless leg syndrome but in your whole body or something. I get the feeling to move but then when I move I want to stay still because I’m so tired and weak. Nothing can make me feel happy when I’m feeling like this.

#529762 Constantly feel bad for being stupid and not knowing anything...

Posted by Kiwi89 on 04 December 2017 - 11:32 PM

Anyone else feel like this? I'll try reading things to gain knowledge and they just don't stick. The big thing is that I'm barely interested in anything either. Some people are like walking encyclopedias and I've been jealous of these types for a long time because I feel like I'm the opposite of an encyclopedia type. I suppose between not being able to process info, not being able to remember anything and having a blank mind, I just feel useless with nothing to offer. 



Pretty depressed today, not always feeling this negative towards myself.

#525290 Has anyone found anything to help their sluggish brain?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 22 November 2017 - 06:56 AM

I have anxiety sometimes but generally not so bad. My brain isn't focusing its energy elsewhere, there simply is no energy.

#522266 Has anyone found anything to help their sluggish brain?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 14 November 2017 - 05:30 PM

I swear my brain feels too tired to think most of the time. I used to day dream and think of funny scenarios. Now I just have one thought at a time and it cuts off if it gets too detailed. Is a tired brain/slow cognition part of the blank mind symptom? 

#518922 Eight months of med trials, no help anywhere

Posted by Kiwi89 on 06 November 2017 - 09:48 PM

Try clomipramine, SSRIs did nothing for me but clomipramine has given me a lot of good days and made me closer to normal than ive been in the past few years. 

#518378 Unconscious feeling

Posted by Kiwi89 on 06 November 2017 - 02:19 AM

I'm doing soo freakin' poorly...Has anyone had any experience with getting off lamictal? Every day I feel like im either about to die, or end up in a psych hospital. I used to live with DP without this much struggle but now I really can't bear it anymore.

#516346 Unconscious feeling

Posted by Kiwi89 on 30 October 2017 - 12:47 PM

I guess so, I have a general apathy and bleak outlook. I get anxiety really badly when the spaced out feeling gets too strong to handle. I also used to be much more creative but feel that my higher thinking has been disabled.

#516114 Unconscious feeling

Posted by Kiwi89 on 29 October 2017 - 08:16 PM

What I mean is that I'm barely conscious. Like I could just black out at any time. Like I'm so spaced out that I can't think or process my surroundings. People here have written about feeling barely conscious before. It's the scariest sh*t ever/

#500178 Lorazapam

Posted by Kiwi89 on 22 September 2017 - 05:30 AM

I'm one of those people who were on benzos long term (4 years) and had to wean off of it. Even though my taper was slow, it was absolute FU**ING HELL. I would never wish it on my worst enemy. Now my cognitive impairment and DP are MUCH worse than before i took the benzos. I've been waiting to heal for four years and although I have gotten better, I still feel permanently damaged. Just adding the "be careful" statement to the whole benzo thing. 

#500066 Fading feeling?

Posted by Kiwi89 on 21 September 2017 - 11:18 PM

Yes OMG I was just coming on to write a post about how bad my unconscious feeling is right now. Usually it's manageable and I can get to the point where I forget about it but it's been really bad this week. Lamictal made it much much worse for me. I have a theory that maybe we have LOW glutamate? Any thoughts? Anyone have success with medication regarding the unconscious feeling?

#483922 Socialising- the biggest symptom

Posted by Kiwi89 on 08 August 2017 - 04:49 AM

Does anyone else not even enjoy being with friends anymore? I always feel is rather be alone