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#461450 my mind is so fucked up

Posted by Vincentv on 20 May 2017 - 05:12 PM


 It's not a matter of whether you deserve this or not.. it's something you apparently have to go through temporarily to learn and to improve yourself. Imagine if you get out of this finallly, then if you get out of it one day then imagine how much better en more understanding and improved you would be! To get there is a hard lesson, may take a while or longer maybe -who knows-  but once you are finally there you are probably gratefull. But for now it is terrible, I agree. But I also like to think about the furure, then we learn a whole lot more the the average person once we step out of tis.

I can't help you get out of it.... I'm still stuck myself you know. But I think about the future and what good will come out of it also.

#458498 Prayer circle

Posted by Vincentv on 11 May 2017 - 12:58 PM

How sorry I felt I could not go through with this. It can be such a healing experience to pray for people... even if it is for someone else. Sorry and I think this topic needs closing because I'm not ready to start a topic an take responsibility.

Maybe another time hopefully.

#456346 Prayer circle

Posted by Vincentv on 04 May 2017 - 02:16 PM

Will pray for you to man! Tonight. Thanks anyway.. sorry about my sudden change. I wasn't ready for this I guess.

#448106 Panicked cause I can hear,see,feel?

Posted by Vincentv on 07 April 2017 - 02:54 PM

Hey guys, aren't we all talking about existential fears? I read the responses and it kind of confirms what I have been thinking all along. That we are all ruminating about our thoughts of being alive and and going around and around in circles, all that is infused with anxiety. Ofcourse anxiety becomes part of it when you focus so much on your existance in an almost obsessive way, and of couse the anxiety leads to more existential fears. There is a very simple principle that says that anxiety leads to more anxiety, whatever the anxiety is bout. Don't you see that we are all trapped in a viscious circle of anxiety??

#447018 Need someone to talk to?

Posted by Vincentv on 04 April 2017 - 05:15 PM

Like your facial mask, isn't that just typical of us dp-ers... wearing some sort of  mask al the time :-D :-D

#446570 DPDR drunk feeling

Posted by Vincentv on 03 April 2017 - 04:17 PM

I think your dp and dr is causing this drunk type of feeling. For me it feels like im out of it and sometimes feeling even dizzy. so yeah.... it's sounds like a normal typical dp experience to me. So yeah.... you maybe thinking it's gets better, but maybe it does not get better. I think this because the 'drunk' type of feeling is typical for dp. We often think we're improving, while what we experience is contradictory, and I think what you descripe is contradictory in my opinion.

#446290 Do you have feelings of unreality?

Posted by Vincentv on 02 April 2017 - 04:06 PM

My theory is that we dp fellow dp- sufferers experience a lowering of conciousness. In other words we are being 'less' aware of things inside and around us of as a protective mechanism so to speak for feelings that we cannot digest. Less aware means also feeling not alive and almost dead. Why? Well, usually we are have the lessened awareness because we have trauma's that we do not want to fully face. And our brain or body does shuts down if we choose to ignore trauma's. It seems that our brain or body does not make a difference between one trauma or other feelings. It's black and white. If we ignore one trauma and avoid that feeling with that trauma then all feelings get supressed. That's the big disadvantage of supressing a trauma, that our body or brain or spirit does not supress one feeling, but if supresses every possibility of feeling. It's always black and white when it comes to our soul. Unfortunately that black and white thinking is how our soul thinks. Our fysical mind does not see the logic, but out soul has a mind on it's own.

So the soul supresses all or nothing, while our physical brain may not agree, but it's still the soul brain that dictates things... in terms of all or nothing! Good news is that once you process the trauma you MAY be able to get rid of the dp, since we are talking about causes on the sould level (namely trauma's). Do you have a trauma's yourself?? Take a look at that trauma and grief about it. The language of the soul is emotions, so by expressions your emotions you are relieving your soul of a great burden. Since your sould dictates everything your grieving has a wonderfulll domino-effect that reaches far and it can even reduce your dp a lot in my experience. It's a bit complicated, I know and I apologize for the long post. Sorry :-D. But I have truly so much experience with this.. 25 plus years that yeah... if you can learn just a tiny bit if it it would still be worth it. anyway. I feel with you and much luck :-) Read carefully what I wrote, because I learned these lessons with falling hard and getting back up again. I think this forum is great btw. Many good people and good avice, so I hope you get other advice as well :-)

#446274 can you explain your brain foggyness? / zoloft

Posted by Vincentv on 02 April 2017 - 03:41 PM

I've been on Citalopram for a while. It took about two week weeks for the medication to fully work. You have been in Zoloft for only three days, so give it time my man! Give it at least two or three or four weeks and then it may get better.

So a bit more patience. And if it doesn't improve then maybe you can have a chat with your doctor to try out another medication? But again, three days is WAYYYY to short... ofcourse you have concentration problems and can't connect with her, because your brain and body still has to adjust to the medication. That is normal man. Give it time and decide later on. And explain to your GF in the meantime that you are on new meds. Hopefully for you she gets it and understands. Good luck.

#445866 Panicked cause I can hear,see,feel?

Posted by Vincentv on 01 April 2017 - 03:49 PM

Yep, I can relate to that. I have this to in a way, but slightly different. I am overly aware of everything that I feel do, and everything that takes place around me... really..... overly conscious.... superconscious. Is that what's going on with you to? Because it can be a consciousnes of what takes place around you, but you can also be concious of what takes place inside you in your own ind, it can be both ways.. I regognize both feelings. You probably have dp yes, it definitely sounds like it to me.

#445858 I miss my old life

Posted by Vincentv on 01 April 2017 - 03:40 PM

Hmmmmm... yep, I understand the blank mind feeling. For me to, I sometimes feel so blank that I don't even realise whats't going on around me... it's like i'm doubting if I even still have dp, but at the same time I know something is very wrong. It feel like sometimes as if it's a never ending story for me. But I do know you get out of this eventually. Try focussing on your breathing in your underbellly. It helpt me a lot to get in touch with feelings again.. Anyway... I feel for you.... hold on and don't just give up :-)

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#445186 I think this is whats meant to be!

Posted by Vincentv on 30 March 2017 - 02:25 PM

So in short we dp-ers escape reality by stepping out of our body. But it's not a full out the body, because if it was fulll, then we would not be concious, therefore all of us are only half concious.... so half out of our body and half concious.

#443970 I literally "feel" NOTHING, anyone else?

Posted by Vincentv on 27 March 2017 - 05:18 PM

Be so real in prayer that you admit your arrogance and your hope for help (while maybe don't even deserve help from the outside). Admit it and admit you dispite all are stilll wondering what is the best route and ask him to show you the best route. If you even spend ten minuts every day in your car praying, then your heart will feel lifted up... just by the fact that you talked to god ten mins. Works better every time then eny anty-depressant I heard of.

#443954 I literally "feel" NOTHING, anyone else?

Posted by Vincentv on 27 March 2017 - 05:05 PM

It's an existential fear you probably have. You fear every type of feeling. that's why you don't feeel. Because guess who is blocking those feelings??? you!


And because you are so afraid of feeling alive, God is someone that is there (if you believe in his existance and if you believe in prayer) to help you out!


Pray honestly and sincerely and ask him to give you challenges and he can help you to get out of all of this,  my man.

#442274 Unreal 24/7

Posted by Vincentv on 22 March 2017 - 04:00 PM

Hello Yoloking, me too. I had this for many years. It fucked me up badly, made me even think about suicide. But I have some good help now, and I underdstand I'm lucky to have good help. Many people in this forum have no one at all. check out the recovery stories and get inspiration there... that's actually yhe most positive and helpfull section on this forum :-) any questions pm.

#441618 Got physically sick, DP got better..

Posted by Vincentv on 20 March 2017 - 05:56 PM

Do that and miracles can happen, your dp can dissapear. I promise. and mostly we don't get out of the dp because we are shit scared of things... mostly shit scared of life... self-acceptance.