It's not a matter of whether you deserve this or not.. it's something you apparently have to go through temporarily to learn and to improve yourself. Imagine if you get out of this finallly, then if you get out of it one day then imagine how much better en more understanding and improved you would be! To get there is a hard lesson, may take a while or longer maybe -who knows- but once you are finally there you are probably gratefull. But for now it is terrible, I agree. But I also like to think about the furure, then we learn a whole lot more the the average person once we step out of tis.
I can't help you get out of it.... I'm still stuck myself you know. But I think about the future and what good will come out of it also.