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Hedgehog fuzz

Member Since 12 Dec 2016
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#529986 Describe how you feel in 3 words

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 05 December 2017 - 06:46 PM

fucked, scared, worried

#529738 Somebody help me before I kill myself. please......

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 04 December 2017 - 07:18 PM

person3, can you please do an in depth report of what you did to recover. i believe you, but please help.

#516962 DP Meet Up/.Support group in London/South-East

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 01 November 2017 - 02:59 PM

This is London UK thread mate

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#495362 People who smoke weed with Dp

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 07 September 2017 - 12:36 PM

When i first started smoking weed many years ago, it was okay. Quite benign and a lot of fun. Somewhere down the line it caused massive paranoia and made me feel more edgy. I sometimes wish that I could smoke it up again, but I will never dare to do that. 

#495234 People who smoke weed with Dp

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 07 September 2017 - 05:07 AM

eddy, your post couldn't resonate with me anymore. i did the same thing. i honestly think smoking weed two or three times as a teenager is probably harmless, but who is going to do it just 3 times. i used drugs to escape and because they were fun, and i totally regret it. addiction problems are why i have got dp/dr, although it wasn't addiction to drugs which i quit 5 years ago, but addiction to pornography and sex. i would still classify porn as a drug, only you are taking it in through the eyes and not putting anything into your body physically. 


it wasn't worth it at all. i should have stuck to a pint with some friends and not tried to always bend the rules to fit my agenda. you couldn't have put it better really. and now i somehow need to feel normal again. 

#479857 Chester Bennington "cry for help" interview. Gets laughed at..

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 24 July 2017 - 03:14 PM

Quite true Chicane. I have truly stopped giving a fuck though and I don't mince my words anymore.


(not saying you are doing that, but i used to hold back alot. my life is so fucked that i don't have a choice tbh. I try and say it all. even then i go home sometimes regretting not saying more. perhaps i will get there in time. better do).

#476449 Really struggling with a blank mind, I don't want to live like this. Plea...

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 12 July 2017 - 04:09 PM

Sorry to hear this has happened to you Maxx, I have the same issue as you, and our other comrades who haven posted in the thread. 


I also have loud tinnitus and know what its like trying to sleep with noise in your ears and nothing but darkness in your mind. I have found that it is much easier to distract myself from the tinnitus, which has got a bit quieter for me over time, compared to the blank mind. Blank mind for me is the worst. Are you getting any help with this from professionals? I was top student in neuroscience, so I know what it is like to loose everything - believe me, I have, including my reputation, job, money etc (though those were from before the dp set in, and not blank mind). Which country do you live in? 


I'm here for you mate.

#474385 Gathering theories!

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 05 July 2017 - 10:58 AM

I will comment later, but wanted to have a mini rant, and say that this site can be pretty fucking annoying at times. But I thank all the people who have helped or are trying to help me.

#467689 Anyone grind their teeth while they are asleep?

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 10 June 2017 - 08:09 AM

magnesium might help you out there as well - i used to take it after havin an MDMA session and it would take the jaw clenching away

#465465 Weird existential stuff?

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 04 June 2017 - 12:15 PM

i know the depression-related feeling that comes with those kind of thoughts. like a fucking sadness because you think that you have reality for what it really is, and that a curtain or veil has lifted and what you see and feel is not exactly great or something to be thrilled about. It sounds like common  dp, but i feel for you when you are going through this. i think if you have somebody to talk to face-face it would be great. 

#465457 My quality of life is garbage

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 04 June 2017 - 12:10 PM

which rant? all i can see is a sentence. well, i echo your sentiments on such a level that i don't even know how to reply to you. if you ever ant to skype chat then  message me.


the things that i have gone through in the last 2 years have wounded my soul or spirit (im not sure if i really believe in that, but just trying to show how deep it is gone). my quality of life, day-to-day suffering and pain is hard to put into words, so today i won't try to. as one human to another, i love you, and i hope that things get better. 

#464857 Anyone UK tried Suboxone/Naloxone/Naltrexone?

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 03 June 2017 - 10:24 AM

I was just talking about naltrexone...not suboxone! 


*awaits more replies*

#456138 Dr. Ronnie Freedman's DepersonalizationCure.com

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 03 May 2017 - 09:20 AM

Well, those are some interesting points about medication and the dangers of being on medications for too long, although I imagine that certain medications carry more of a risk than other ones. I think though that medication is a necessary tool for certain people - you will know if you are such a person. I don't think medications should be thrown out as a tool altogether, because there are people who recover with it. And if you have other conditions like OCD for example that are taking up all of your time and not giving you a second break from anxiety, then I would say talk to your doctor. We should always remember to post responsibly on here and stress this. 


What she says from that article doesn't sound any different from CBT, and I am wondering if the Overcoming book written by the researchers of the DP Unit in London would confer the same benefits. In fact, it is CBT (well, leaning more towards behaviour therapy).


Having said that, from that article, it looks decent and probably can't do any harm. I am sure if applied properly it will help. As for getting rid of the blank mind....I am not sure. Let us know if it does. I think that could be more a chemical issue and need medication but I think that anything is possible and our minds would benefit from all the positive changes.

#453338 Severe cognitive impairment

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 24 April 2017 - 05:48 AM

How did you improve? How did you get to this point where you are at now?

#453146 why am i not RECOVERED ?

Posted by Hedgehog fuzz on 23 April 2017 - 02:22 PM

Yeah maybe to help find a purpose, but also to explore the pain behind you if that involves heavy emotional work. I think that is crucial to do with somebody unless you can manage to do it by yourself - I'm just giving my thoughts on it, i would always say it is better to do this kind of work in a therapeutic environment, but whatever works.


I am in the same situation as you bro. Total confidence and whatever lust for life that I did have...GONE. I don't know if this applies to you, but I am wishing not that I was dead, but that I could start my life over from even just a few years ago. I have gone through so much hell that I can't even put it into words. I'm fucked man. I'm just trying my hardest right now.