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ReiTheySay

Member Since 04 Aug 2016
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Dreams

20 December 2020 - 07:04 AM

I'm curious. Has anybody else experienced change in their dream experience?

Not content necessarily.

 

I used to have dreams where I fully experienced the dreams or felt so real but not since DPDR. Now, not immersive. I'm never fully there.

 

At the beginning, for a long while, I never had any dreams. Then when I was on meds, I either never did or never remembered them for years.

 

Now off meds, and having coped with DPDR, I have dreams frequently but they're less crisp, vague, more 'blurry', less defined, a bit distant, and less 'experienced'.

 

I wanna know if this is actually common.


DPDR and Work?

02 November 2020 - 09:56 AM

Hello,

 

 

I've just recently started working at a company, where there's ~20-30 people in one room. A bright white room where you can see everyone and everything.

It's my first 8 to 5 job. My DPDR isn't necessarily worsening so far, it's been stable for a long time, but I can see myself losing me in a way and I'd got my DPDR under control with establishing a meaningful everyday life where I'm mentally active, rested, and engaged with my surroundings, which hasn't been the case after getting the job. I become this numb person at work and when I come home I can't shake off that it feels like I'm that empty-minded attitude-less person and I don't get much sleep (terrible for DPDR). I know typical office work is numbing and unpleasant for everyone without having DPDR or mental illness.. I wanna know other people experiences with DPDR with this and how you cope?


Covid-19

22 July 2020 - 02:00 PM

Hey..

 

 

I wanna say the quarantine period & pandemic has been a roller coaster but it's been mostly lows.

 

I've learned I can be anxious in many many different ways! And my relationship with death (and loss) got strained again, and that old teenage depression and sort of despair somehow is here and very real.

 

It's been as if it's nearing the end of my life, it feels, whether mine directly or life as I know it. I'm scared of losing people I love.

 

 

Has anyone else been feeling this way?

Nobody I know at least shares these feelings and thoughts. Nobody is as cautious and worried as me either. It's been almost 5 months and it feels like I'm losing it.


My own reflection exhausts me?

30 May 2020 - 02:34 AM

Hey

 

As I try to improve and expand the areas in which I'm getting better & comfortable... I try new things I wasn't able to at the beginning

 

Looking at the mirror was so impossible for me. Now, it's OK. It's not the worst thing ever, not always, but most of the time.

But... let's saying dancing in front of a mirror for example, exhausts the fuk out of me.

I don't know why!

Maybe the reason is obvious... but I'm not as dissociating when looking at it, I guess I am dissociating but in a different, having coped, kind of way, that is milder,

yet

being a person and talking and dancing while seeing my reflection leaves me after with such an exhaustion as if I went on a hike

 

does anyone else with chronic dpdr relate?

does anyone else feel like they're weirdly stuck in that aspect?


Everything going and on and DPDR

12 April 2020 - 10:26 AM

Hello,

 

How is everyone doing lately?

 

I've been quarantining for over 35 days now (never left home once).

At the beginning it wasn't a big deal. Even though I'm an introvert going out every weekend to the beach or even getting things done is essential to me.

I've come a long way with DPDR, very gradually, getting to know how to manage it over the years, I've gotten to a point I don't know if I have DPDR or not (probably partially because another disorder took over, ha!)

Lately though, I noticed it lurking... I just recently graduated (and didn't get to apply for a job) and have no stable structure of my day...most of it I'm bored out of my mind to the point it feels so weird, *I* feel weird. Stuck at home.. without being able to imagine what future holds, it took away the dimension-ality of living or experiencing life/the presence.

I notice more than ever how future plans (even just having the option), help with me staying grounded, knowing where I stand.

 

How's it been for everyone?

Do you feel like this has been negatively affecting your DPDR? What's been helping?