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Blankmind23

Member Since 26 Jul 2016
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#378579 This blank mind is killing me

Posted by Blankmind23 on 08 September 2016 - 12:42 PM

Guys, seriously, what can be done? Since I wake up my body is in constant anxiety to the point where is physically hurts... but this blank mind is killing me... I am not thinking about anything, I have no sense of self, it's just pure nothingness... I don't have myself!!! Please HELP! :(

I'm In the exact some boat you there will be a way out I just know what the fuck we can do!! I can relate to the painfulness


#378055 Racing thoughts or blank mind

Posted by Blankmind23 on 30 August 2016 - 04:07 PM

I just don't get what everyone is fucking moaning about if they had this blank mind for even a day they would probably want to die. It makes me think have I've had depsonalisation my whole life if it's about racing thoughts. I see there's a pattern here with this blank mind everyone has had ocd thoughts my heart goes out to all of us blank minders there has to be a way out for us I just. Sense it's not going to be easy


#377993 Racing thoughts or blank mind

Posted by Blankmind23 on 29 August 2016 - 01:35 PM

I used to have racing thoughts and very ocd intrusive thoughts. Now I don't understand what the people with racing thoughts are even complaining about id do anything to have my thought process back. Feeling like your so blank inside that you litrally feel dead and the emotional numbness and lack of inner monalouge is the most disturbing thing in the world.


#377921 I want to die.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 28 August 2016 - 10:43 AM

i realy wish dp on eveyone around me my friends and family to understand how i suffer and dont blame me and tell me u r always sick . i wish this death on them realy realy bad

I agree with you then they can understand how fucking painful this really is


#377860 I want to die.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 27 August 2016 - 11:16 AM

I feel all of you there's no fucking end to this literally it's horrific fucking blank mind I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy .


#377635 Blankness. Is there one single person

Posted by Blankmind23 on 23 August 2016 - 02:54 PM

Is there one single person on this site who's recovered from the blank mind symptom no inner monalouge no self and no emotions there got to be someone on here with some answers


#377465 Not in my body or my mind

Posted by Blankmind23 on 19 August 2016 - 04:18 PM

Is any else like this I'm litrally not in my own head or my body I look at my self In the mirror and it freaks me out the fuck is this I'm not human anymore. Feel like I've died or my souls been removed completely


#377278 Breathing problems

Posted by Blankmind23 on 16 August 2016 - 05:21 PM

You the same?? And yeh I smoke only about 3 a day and my sleep is pretty ok only because of the tablets I have though but at the start I was up all night. And yeh feel constant anxiety/panic even though I'm not anxious and don't have any thoughts if that makes sense so weird


#377151 Still blank why the hell cant I think.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 14 August 2016 - 11:26 AM

People say ignore it and the feeling will go away but if you have a blank mind how the hell can you do that. Inner monalouge where are you?? Short term long term memory where are you? Emotions where are you ?? Ahh miss my racing thoughts so hopeless I don't know how everyone else is coping. i dont even know if this really is dp or brain damage




#376902 my mind was not so silent this morning I actually had thoughts for a hour for...

Posted by Blankmind23 on 10 August 2016 - 12:50 PM

Nope I have no emotions. But yesterday morning I did for one hour while I was able to think. It makes sense if you can't think how would you be able to feel emotion. Seriously for that one hour I felt normal.

glad to here things are getting a little better for you pink, hopefully the rest of us can follow


#376393 Blank mind/no thoughts discuss, causes

Posted by Blankmind23 on 01 August 2016 - 11:26 AM

It was somehow like this. I was some obsessing on many meaningless (at least that's how I perceive them now) things and had often anxiety and a depressed mood.
 
But this was better than now. Do you know the computer game "Super Hexagon"? My life feels like the last stage, this super hard black-and-white stage that goes on endlessly until you die.
 
If you don't know the game see for example this:



How long you been like this man? And I can Relate to that game.. This utter hell

I did honey I had ocd thoughts non stop for two weeks before this happened.

yep same here for me it was about 3 weeks and my thoughts slowly started to fade my memory's started to deteriorate like my soul was slowly leaving my body.


 

That would make sense. If the mind was overloaded it decided that was enough and shut down as a safety measure.

that defiantly makes sense it's like the brains been over loaded with all these thoughts and couldent handle it so it's shut down, the stress must still be present though as its not coming back on. It really is torture my heart goes out to all of us suffering with this.

 

 

 

Yes, I did. And it scares me to this moment. It's like I was scared of what is happening in my head as I was thinking so much uncontrollably and now I am scared of this nothingness. Does it make sense?

the nothingness is scary. I'd much rather have my ocd thoughts that this

 

 

That does make sense Mezona.
 
It can be hard, and these sensations can be very scary, but I would try to remind yourself it's because your mind is very tired and you have been feeling a lot of stress, perhaps for a very long time, so it's understandable that you should be feeling this way. Try not to analyse them and try to leave them alone by not questioning them. Try not to overthink and relax as much as you can, and they will fade in time.

this really does make alot of sense tbh




#376323 Blank mind/no thoughts discuss, causes

Posted by Blankmind23 on 31 July 2016 - 04:06 PM

I don't know if anyone else with the blank Mind symptoms no emotions and no inner monologue symptom had really ocd thoughts and super extreme racing thoughts before the blankness came?


#375969 Blank mind no thoughts no inner voice no emotions 3 months on feel dead.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 27 July 2016 - 06:57 AM

yep same here, my third eye used to show me alot of insights and stuff but with my drug usage and shit i feel pretty hopeless ..dont do drugs

no do not do drugs what kind of drugs was you doing and what happened with you?


How old are you blankmind? 23 ;) ?
 
I am going through something very similair, you can find many of my blank mind posts on here (unfortunately). I wish I had something positive to tell you as I know how hard (beyond that) it is to deal with something like this. And feeling like you don' t even "have" yourself to deal with it. 
 
Did you have racing thoughts that were slowly fading? How did you find out the term "blank mind" and what's wrong with you? Do you have trouble planning, organizing, doping simple things... well basically anything? Or are you still able to manage to go to school, work...? How did it affect your life?
 
Did you have anxiety even before taking the extasy?

hi thanks for the reply I'm 20, that's exactly it I can't even deal with it on my own because I'm so detached from my self thoughts ect! Yep mad racing thoughts sort of like ocd thoughts repeating the same thing over and over again linked with anxiety and my mind slowly fading away. Sort of just typed in no thoughts on the internet came up with blank mind. Literally it's like my life is on pause like I've died inside no constant voice talking me through things, yeh I can't do anything I've had to come out of work since I can't remember anything I'm clumsy and my heads blank so I can't deal with customers I've broke up with my girlfriend I try to explain to her but she didn't get it I also couldent feel any kind of love for her even though I'd been with her years, friendships ruined no social life it's just had completely devastating effects on my life. These 3 months feel like a life time! How are you coping with things?? Yeh extreme anxiety before the ecstasy.


Just read your response to my old post. But I couldn't help but respond to yours too because you sound just like me when I came here like a month ago. Terrified. Hope I can bring you some peace of mind because it does get better with time :) with me I was scared the first three months also but as time passed I became a lot less frightened I feel more peaceful I'm 4 months in but already I'm making progress just relax as much as you can sleep a lot, take small walks, watch funny movies alone it feels good and before you know it you will be more comfortable and willing to do more baby steps. I spend most my time watching movies in my room,taking walks with my mom and having fires and cookouts with my boyfriend in my backyard. See a therapist also and take vitamins you will be ok



thanks for the reply! And I hope it does get better in time it's literally the worst thing in the world how are you coping then?? And I already sleep alot not sure if it's helping! Yeh I go on lots of walks it's about all I do tbh but yeh I think baby steps are the way I couldent take any big leaps I just want it go and be back to normal:( I thought I may have brain damage at first. What's your relationship like with your boyfriend? What does he think about it all if you don't mind me asking. I've seen a doctor but he has no idea what the hell im talking, I'm yet to see a therapist but I don't think they will understand either. How did you get in this situation??


#375938 Blank mind no thoughts no inner voice no emotions 3 months on feel dead.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 26 July 2016 - 03:03 PM

Thanks for the welcome! It's literally the worst thing isn't it;( yep you sound just the same as me I cannot picture anything nor imagine anything nor feel anything:( do you have no emotions either ? And thank you for the reply btw

It started around 3 months ago I'd taken ecstasy (don't know if that's the cause) I had extreme anxiety also but it wasn't just from being normal to going blank/dped it took around 3 and a half weeks it was like a gradual build up my thoughts just started dying out and memory was fading and my emotions were going away I didn't know what was happening I thought I may have brain damage from the drugs. At the end of that 3.5 weeks I'd woken up and completely blank no thoughts no emotions for anything at all no inner monologue it feels like I've died there are other symptoms but they don't even compare to the blankness it really is unreal nothing has improved what so ever. The doctors don't know what I'm talking about they just don't get what I'm talking about. no one understands its just good to know there's other people I really don't know how everyone else copes I can't :( how did things start for you if you don't mind me asking? Sorry for the grammer my heads just not with it


#375928 Blank mind no thoughts no inner voice no emotions 3 months on feel dead.

Posted by Blankmind23 on 26 July 2016 - 12:37 PM

Hi new on here I think I defiantly have depersonalisation but can't really find anyone with symptoms like this. I don't know I feel like dead my head is completely empty I can't think of anything no thoughts very very blank mind no emotions what so ever even though I'm aware of what I should feel no inner voice either (if you know what I mean very scary been like this for 3 months see no way out especially when you can't think.. I see lots of people on here who have racing thoughts must be different kinds of dp I don't know this is horrible. Hope some body can relate.