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#616702 eating/relationships, etc

Posted by yoloking123 on 03 April 2020 - 06:42 PM

Do you feel like everything is scary to do when depersonalized such as even eating? I even feel like ill never be able to get married and have kids with this thing. Im still a virgin and all and i turn 20 next month, im not ashamed of that btw... the thing is how could i possibly get a girlfriend and have sex with her if i feel this way? What if i die, while having sex with her, you know what i mean? Its very scary to think about. I hate this condition with all my being, its took away so much. I think i would already have a job and a girlfriend rn, if it wasnt for this condition but i just dont.

#616120 why?

Posted by yoloking123 on 15 March 2020 - 05:19 PM

I hate DP/DR. Its not fair what so ever to have to deal with this each and every single day. I just recently had surgery to get my appendix removed and always feared surgery, but whenever i found out i had to have it, i didnt really care that i had too because i knew deep down within, that surgery is not as scary as DP/DR is. Yet we have to deal with it EVERY SINGLE DAY AND SOMEHOW RECOVER by trying to do some kind of thing or tactic that someone else used to recover, it feels impossible to get out of this condition. I find it hard that something so fucking terrible could exist but it literally does and i find myself asking myself all the time, just why the fuck did this happen to me? Because im so intelligent i become mentally ill? It just doesnt make any sense. Always anxious and always scared about absolutely nothing is just stupid and completely uncalled for.

#613998 100% recovered 1.5 years DP

Posted by yoloking123 on 03 February 2020 - 01:41 PM

This really is the only recovery story that fits good on my soul, the only story i look at the most.

#608368 I recovered 3 years ago, from 7 years DP/DR

Posted by yoloking123 on 26 October 2019 - 04:01 AM

maybe trying to keep feeling is the key to recovery, its ironic because my birthday is in May and i got this disorder in march 2016

#592110 Weird sensation in head?

Posted by yoloking123 on 29 October 2018 - 05:29 PM

I just want to know if were on the same page with DP/DR. Do you guys sometimes feel like your brain is really cloudy or like feeling really weird and mentally fucked up in the sense that its impossible to describe?

#590674 I stopped caring

Posted by yoloking123 on 23 September 2018 - 07:23 PM

Has anybody like just gave up on ever recovering from DP/DR and think its a feeling that never goes away? Cuz ive did everything i could to recover but nothing. I dont really care about it tho frustrating but at the end of the day im just awaiting my death like every other human being so who really cares. I havent been on this website in so long and refuse to really look at anything on this site again. All its doing is making you feel worse imo. Just do you and fuck dp dr. Its a fucked up feeling ik this. Fucking 2 years and just gave up. Thats what everybody says but mine still has not gone away so i have no idea what you would want me to do. As long as there are other people feeling like i am right now this second im fine.

#586538 Don’t know the cause

Posted by yoloking123 on 04 July 2018 - 02:18 PM

That relying on your girlfriend is also not very healthy....Addicts and DP suffers are also often Co-Dependant....We need to learn to become more reliant on ourselves and also we need to learn to sit with ourselves and be comfortable on our own and in our own skin....

This all may sound impossible but I can promise you its possible....It has been my own personal experience.....It just didnt happen overnight which is what all anxious people want... "Everything yesterday" ......In fact patience as regards recovery from any illness especially mental is VITAL....

You will get better but it takes time...

Everytime I read one of your comments I feel better man, I dont know what it is. Your indeed a very intellegent human being thats for sure.

#585098 Uncomfortable to think,feel and see ? being human

Posted by yoloking123 on 17 June 2018 - 02:43 PM

Yup i know exactly what you mean. The fear doesnt seem to ever stop and i just want relief. The entire time ive had DP/DR ive felt like im on the verge of dieing 24/7. But what can you do try to relax? Nah thats impossible in this hellish condition cuz trying to feel the chair sometimes freaks me out. I seem to think my DP/DR is far worser than anyones elses.

#584706 An interesting tip for a possible quick cure/relief from DP/DR

Posted by yoloking123 on 16 June 2018 - 01:32 AM

Im definitely gonna try it cuz it really does make sense to me. Hopefully i feel what you felt.

#578442 cant stand this

Posted by yoloking123 on 15 May 2018 - 10:27 PM

Tomorrow is my graduation from school so during it im gonna be extremly anxious and depersonalized. When I hit my bed its gonna be like it never happend or I just never existed to create the memory. Life must go on.

#578146 Social skills

Posted by yoloking123 on 14 May 2018 - 05:42 PM

I think the main reason I got DP/DR was from my bad social anxiety. I would try so hard to make friends but i never knew what to say. I cant deny that marijuana triggerd it but socializing has to be the cause.I have to face it and make friends and possibly the DP/DR will lift. If im hanging out with people I still try hard. I dont know what it is but it frustrates me to try to socialize and make friends. What do I say? What do I do? Trying to socialize drained me so much and depressed me because I couldnt do it. Anybody else?

#575610 Do you listen to music?

Posted by yoloking123 on 04 May 2018 - 12:55 PM

I still do but it doesnt feel like anything if that makes any sense. I guess because with DP/DR the brain is numb and cant feel the music as it should be heard.

#567841 Im done with it (7 years)

Posted by yoloking123 on 04 April 2018 - 05:46 PM

You make it sound very easy if only it was that easy but you had it for 7 years and i only had it for 2 i will do my absoulute best not to fear it anymore.

#561425 Anybody relate

Posted by yoloking123 on 09 March 2018 - 03:07 PM

Do you feel panicky 24/7 like I do or is it just me? Prolly just a regular symptom of DP, at least thats what I hope. I can be distracted and still feel panicky on the inside.

#524122 Almost 2 years with DP/DR

Posted by yoloking123 on 19 November 2017 - 02:51 AM

Im sick and tired of this condition guys. Why does it exist? We have absolutly no idea why. I bet their are people out there who killed themselves over DP. I get really scared that one day this may drive me to kill myself. I just really feel like i have had this for so long and should have went away by now but no its still with me and yet i keep going and striving to get out. I know i havent lived the best life because before DP struck i was very depressed, and had bad social anxiety. I think this all happend because i never had a brother or a sister. Im an only child. Being an only child causes lonliness and depression. Marijuana may have triggered my dp but their was underlying causes for me to get this hellish disorder. Feeling numb and anxious/panicky and out of body 24/7 is not fun thats for sure and not being able to feel another persons presence. I cant stand it anymore! Why me? Why me? Why me God?