Sorry for another "this weird thing happened" thread. I know the explanation isn't necessarily here, but I just want it to be out there.
So let's go over the last few days. I felt bad on Tuesday so started reality testing by looking at estate agent signs to see if their phone numbers had 27's in (a problem I had previously with a sequence of signs). Not one, so good. However the next day I am going to look at a flat. Down the Road it is on, the first sign has 27 in the phone number, then the next for a separate company, then the next. So basically it seemed to catch up magically the day after.
Anyway the next day, I'm trying to think a way around it as I can't carry on if I can't find some way of that being a thing and this being the real world at the same time. While I'm thinking about it, I remind myself of how I have had dreams that have foretold things I would see the next day and how that happened itself "coincidentally" 2 nights in a row...
So last night I have a dream and a friend who I rarely see is in it really vividly. This morning I open my phone and what do I see? He has randomly posted a picture of himself in a rarely used group chat. So not only did I have another dream that foretold what I would see, but it also caught up "magically" the next day just like the sign thing.
As with everything I post, these things would be unremarkable on their own... But with everything else I have to put up with it serioudly doesn't sit right...
I'm not in control, I watch this person walking and talking and doing stuff as normal despite the fact I can't tell whether it's really happening or not. These magical things that happen don't fit with my previous views on magic etc. But I seemingly prove any if it with science. I can't say I believe I'm ill, I can't say I even exist anymore.
All of this plus more would not piece together in the real world. So this is why I am so scared and confused. I need help but I don't think anyone in this world can help because they might not be real.
For... Fuck... Sake.
So let's go over the last few days. I felt bad on Tuesday so started reality testing by looking at estate agent signs to see if their phone numbers had 27's in (a problem I had previously with a sequence of signs). Not one, so good. However the next day I am going to look at a flat. Down the Road it is on, the first sign has 27 in the phone number, then the next for a separate company, then the next. So basically it seemed to catch up magically the day after.
Anyway the next day, I'm trying to think a way around it as I can't carry on if I can't find some way of that being a thing and this being the real world at the same time. While I'm thinking about it, I remind myself of how I have had dreams that have foretold things I would see the next day and how that happened itself "coincidentally" 2 nights in a row...
So last night I have a dream and a friend who I rarely see is in it really vividly. This morning I open my phone and what do I see? He has randomly posted a picture of himself in a rarely used group chat. So not only did I have another dream that foretold what I would see, but it also caught up "magically" the next day just like the sign thing.
As with everything I post, these things would be unremarkable on their own... But with everything else I have to put up with it serioudly doesn't sit right...
I'm not in control, I watch this person walking and talking and doing stuff as normal despite the fact I can't tell whether it's really happening or not. These magical things that happen don't fit with my previous views on magic etc. But I seemingly prove any if it with science. I can't say I believe I'm ill, I can't say I even exist anymore.
All of this plus more would not piece together in the real world. So this is why I am so scared and confused. I need help but I don't think anyone in this world can help because they might not be real.
For... Fuck... Sake.