Hello, everyone. It's been a while. I didn't know which forum to post this on, so I guess I'll post it here since this is probably the one closest to what I'm having.
I've been having doubts about a particular memory where I was "grabbed" in the chest by a kid from my school on the playground. Everything felt like a blur and what's bothering me is that I don't even know or remember if he actually touched me because it all happened so fast. One thing I do remember is that I saw a few girls several yards away from me that turned to each other and started laughing and I ran away. I let the school know what he did and a counselor talked to him, but I never knew if he admitted to doing it or not and the counselor didn't tell me (which I guess makes sense because laws and everything, but still). Because I don't know if he owned up to doing it or not, I don't know if he got properly punished for it or if he got a slap on the wrist. However, I did not see him for a while after that, but it still bugs me because I don't know what really happened when the school had to step in.
I don't have any body memories or anything. But as much as it would be horrible to have them, it would at least show me that it really did happen. I wish my memory wasn't so muddled from DPDR and from my young age. I also wish that I knew what he said when he was being questioned. Wanted to put this here because I want to know if anyone has experienced something like this with their memories. I just want to know if this really happened and if I got this kid in trouble for something he did/didn't do. I keep remembering this when my mind wanders and I can't take it because it ruins my mood completely when I think about it.