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#13 LRD123

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Posted 01 November 2019 - 10:03 AM

To start off with, I have labrinythitis.. I've had it since the end of June this year shortly a few weeks after I had my son. I believe I have DPDR after a lot of searching on the internet and no doctors being able to figure out whats wrong with me.. apparently nothing is wrong with my eyes, my eye exam is fine and nothing is wrong with my brain because the MRI came back clear. They originally thought migraine but none of the weird vision disturbances come and go, they are constant.  Anyways, in July, I started getting a sort of tunnel vision which freaked me out. A couple weeks later I noticed static in my vision.. like everything is covered in static. Things just look odd almost dream like, almost like I was in a trance. Just really strange and hard to describe to anyone.

 

Symptoms:

-spaced out

-things don't feel real

-feel like I am floating 

-no connection to anything

-extreme anxiety and panic constantly

-worried about my health(obsessive googling) 

-body feels hollow and heavy

-nauseous, dizzy, light headed, feel like I'm going to pass out all the time

-buzzing in ears

-eyes feel tired.. feel like there is a plastic film over my eyes

-body feels weak, all I want to do is sleep(wake up shaking and scared all hours of the night)

-bad vivid dreams every night 

-flickering vision, static vision 

-objects appear to sway side to side and up and down

-tunnel like vision

-blurry vision 

-colors are dull 

-everything looks like its zoomed in, like everything is closing in on me

-vision seems to move in frames if that makes sense 

-feel like I'm going blind

-talking to people freaks me out and feels strange

 

I'm just really scared and I don't know what to do anymore.. I feel so depressed and scared and panicky.. literally feel like I'm going blind and going to die at any moment. Although all tests say otherwise. I have a three year old daughter and an almost 5 month old son. I'm on Lexapro 10mg for depression/anxiety.. my primary care doctor concluded that my problems are all caused by anxiety including my vision. I've been on the medication for about a month and am seeing little to no improvement. I feel so helpless and hopeless.. just want my life back and want to know when this will end if it ever will. 



#14 yoloking123

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Posted 16 March 2020 - 12:30 AM

I just tried to get my mom to read this to understand somewhat of what i go through every day and she told me no but i told her if you dont read it, ill read it to you and i did. She told me “why do you go on the internet looking at stuff like this just to make you feel worse” I told her going on this site does not affect how i feel. Goes to show, my mom will never understand my suffering or thinks im just making it up or some shit and thats ok, i accept that. I rarely come on this site in the first place.

#15 Where

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Posted 16 March 2020 - 12:07 PM

I just tried to get my mom to read this to understand somewhat of what i go through every day and she told me no but i told her if you dont read it, ill read it to you and i did. She told me “why do you go on the internet looking at stuff like this just to make you feel worse” I told her going on this site does not affect how i feel. Goes to show, my mom will never understand my suffering or thinks im just making it up or some shit and thats ok, i accept that. I rarely come on this site in the first place.


That's good acceptance on your part. I think it'll be very beneficial to you. DPD can't be developed by talking to people about it or by going on DPSH. Neither can clinical anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, and so on.

#16 RedLanterns

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Posted 03 April 2020 - 10:43 PM

I don't have good experience with talking to people I have a hard time talking about my feelings with people I am very introvert and extrovert I dont like people because a lot have wronged me so I try to keep my distance from people in the morning and get more extrovert during the day



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