My name is Chiara and I'm 19 years old. I haven't been on here for a while since I'm doing so much better, but I thought it was my duty to post a recovery story.
My DP started the 1st Febraury 2018. I had just finished my exams and was celebrating out with a friend. All of a sudden I start to feel dizzy. And I experience for the first time that sentation that haunted me for months, and that I can barely recall now. It was as though I was in a bubble, trapped behind a pane of glass. I didn't feel any emotion. Everything felt numb and weird. My memories didn't feel like they were mine anymore. The concept of time and space freaked me out. I also had a blank mind, I couldn't think, read, watch tv. I was a zombie trapped in a body that I didn't feel ike mine. The people I loved were strangers and no place felt like home. After 3 months of me ignoring the ever increasing feeling that something was wrong, I left school and went back home, since I couldn't physically study anymore. Last summer was probably the worst time of my life. I could barely leave the house, I was unresponsive, I didn't care about anything. I didn't have energy, I didn't want to live anymore.
I finally decided to go see a doctor, and that's when things started getting better. I can't stress this enough, guys. GO see a therapist and a psychiatrist. And if you don't like or trust the first one you go to, try another until you find the right one. I changed three therapists before I found the current one who's following me and who's made me feel so much better.
The psychiatrist put me on Citalopram. At first I thought it wasn't really helping, but after some weeks I started noticing a very small difference. The highest dose I was put on was 40 mg. But I still felt horribly. So he put me on Zyprexa as well. This medication was a true life savior for me. I started to feel better on the very first day of taking it. I'm currently taking 2,5 mg of Zyprexa and 10 mg of Citalopram.
When it comes to distraction, I'm a little skeptical to think it can cure DP. But it definately played a role in my recovery. After I stared feeling a little better, I decided to go back to University. That was a HUGE help.
I am now fully functioning and I've just come back from a trip to Denmark with my boyfriend. I hadn't felt that good in ages. I was convinced I was never gonna feel love or amusement ever again, but boy I was wrong.
Studying really helps me staying focused too.
I'm still working with my therapist to understand te cause of my DP, but I think it was a combination of high stress and some traits of my personality that kind of fucked my brain up until it decided it was time for a break.
I feel now 99.9% recovered. The only thing that lingers just a bit is a subtle layer of numbess, that is lifting day by day.
There is hope guys! Keep fighting!
If you have any questions feel free to contact me.