Posted 14 August 2018 - 10:35 PM
Posted 19 August 2018 - 09:29 PM
i feel like the weight of reality is crushing me every second of the day, like it's mentally painful to exist and i dont know what to do. i want this feeling to pass so bad but it doesn't and it feels like utter torture. i really dont know how much longer i can last, its nonstop. i dont want to die but if it's the only thing that will put me out of my misery i might have to sooner or later unfortunately
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Posted 22 August 2018 - 07:55 PM
My depression and anxiety has hit me pretty hard. I feel like everything's going wrong; I had a panic attack for the first time in months/years a few weeks ago and I cry at every minor inconvenience. My eyes still hurt from a crying spell I had 6-7 hours ago. I want to hurt myself but I can't because people don't want me to so I'm just stuck.
Posted 06 September 2018 - 10:45 AM
fucking goddamn mother fucker decided that after a night of drinking and civil conversation was going to sexually assault me out of nowhere. Sitting down next to him, with my friend and his, there was a lull in the conversation so this asshole decided to he was going to just take what he wanted. Fuck you fuck you you right the fuck off go play in traffic and feel the jolting horrible brutal feeling of what you did you goddamn waste of human flesh. I hate you, who the fuck do you think you are.
And what the fuck did I do? I wish I would have hurt you so bad, but no all I could use was my fucking words, which count for shit. God damnit. Do you have any fuckingidea, no you dont. Thanks. Just what I needed. Fuck it, it almost fall, everything is about to die, I'm going to holed inside and you you fucker, you put your hands on me. I just hate this so much.
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Posted 29 May 2019 - 05:57 AM
So here it goes. This is my first post on this self help website. I actually just came across it a few weeks ago. And i think this is the most approbations first post.
I AM SITTING HERE SO IRRITAED AT LIFE AND WHY THE F THIS HAPPENED. AND HOW IN THE WORLD THIS CAN BE AN ACTUAL THING. LIKE MANY OF YOU ALL IM SURE, I WAS SUPER HIGH FUNCTIONING LOVING LIFE AND THEN WAM I GET HIT WITH DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY OHT OF NO WHERE, and that’s all fine and dandy something I can deal with but then I go and get treatment from a ketamine clinic for severe depression and anxiety - which is known to have a 70% success rate and the night after I did it. I wake up having a severe anxiety attack. I remember looking in the mirror like 12 times because I literally felt like a floating body. I HAVENT HAD ONE MOMENT OF RELIEF SINCE THEN! I HAVENT LEFT THE HOUSE MUCH, IM JUST ANGRY AT EVERYONE BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE NOONE IS LISTENING OR TRULY UNDERSTANDS WHATS GOING ON. I HATE THIS. I JUST WANT MY LIFE BACK. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START.
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Posted 19 October 2019 - 12:28 PM
I try so hard everyday and it's still here. My life is a mess. I am a mess. I can barely get up in the morning. I wish I could just make it stop. I want my brain to shut up. I want to stop having these feelings. I hate myself for it. I can barely function. Why won't it stop!?I am tired of being strong everyday. I want it to be gone. I never lost that hope that it will stop someday. I want it to be better. How can I go on like this? Sometimes I get so stressed I start to drool. I don't know how to stop it. My eyes are all glazed over. I look in the mirror and see someone who is vacant and it feels awful. I just want to feel human again. I want to look in the mirror and have my eyes engage and see myself. I don't want to be faking it through life anymore. I want to feel normal!!!!!!!!!!! I end up thinking about it all the time because it won't go away! GO AWAY!!!!!! I wish I could just wish it away. I wish I could just feel normal. GO AWAY! I want my life back. I want to smile again. I want my life back! I am so angry but I feel like I can't let it out. I feel like nothing comes out. I feel like just lying in a pile forever.
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