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Poll: How did you get DP/DR? (91 member(s) have cast votes)

How did you get DP/DR?

  1. Drugs (cannabis, alcohol, opiates, etc) (41 votes [33.61%])

    Percentage of vote: 33.61%

  2. Voted Psychological/emotional trauma (37 votes [30.33%])

    Percentage of vote: 30.33%

  3. Neurological causes/conditions (4 votes [3.28%])

    Percentage of vote: 3.28%

  4. Head trauma (0 votes [0.00%])

    Percentage of vote: 0.00%

  5. Comorbid mental illness/symptom of other mental illness (13 votes [10.66%])

    Percentage of vote: 10.66%

  6. Other (6 votes [4.92%])

    Percentage of vote: 4.92%

  7. Voted Unsure/don't know (21 votes [17.21%])

    Percentage of vote: 17.21%

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#13 1144



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Posted 03 April 2018 - 09:01 AM

I really don't know. I think I experienced it a few times in my early teenage years though I remember when I was scuba diving in January of 2017 I felt it there. Fucking terrifying 10 meters underwater.
April of 2017 I had a very bad reaction to some bud. Was genuinely convinced I was dying, hallucinating and I couldn't feel my skin. The next day things were off, but after that, it seemed to go away

and I was handling things just fine. Though from there, things slowly went downhill, and I got derealization (never depersonalization though). September of 2017 was when it began to really make an

impact on my life, and by December of last year, I wasn't leaving the house at all. Only recently I'm now experiencing depersonalization and my god it is fucking scary... I really don't know what caused it.

I think it was the weed, but it could be something else too. I am so lost. I just want my life back.

#14 Chip1021


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Posted 09 April 2018 - 01:27 PM

I got bullied at work was horrible. And I worked in a mental health team!!

That doesn't surprise me at all. Psychiatry basically began on the theory that certain people need to be bullied, harassed, and brain damaged into changing their behavior. Sure, the field has advanced to having some medical legitimacy in recent years, but it's not fundamentally a different institution.

#15 lavinia94



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Posted 14 September 2018 - 05:53 AM

I've had DPD since I was a kid. There are big chunks of my childhood that I can't remember.


I know from what other family members have told me that my mother was emotionally abusive towards me (she was also mentally unstable) and neglected me since I was a baby. I remember witnessing some pretty bad fights between my parents too, some of them involving my mother physically threatening my father. I have also been told that both my mother and my grandmother (her mother) threatened to kill themselves in front of me.


I also didn't have a great relationship with my father and his mother, often having arguments that would escalate to them shouting at me for the smallest issues and me spacing out as I didn't feel like there was anything I could do, so I would go quiet and that would irritate them even more.


That combined with moving countries when I was a kid, having to learn new languages, being bullied at school and just not really fitting in turned out to be the perfect recipe for DPD. I also developed some disordered eating in my teens, self-harmed and was depressed, all of which either stemmed from my DPD or made it worse.

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Posted 20 November 2018 - 11:39 PM

Very good question. I'm still not sure I was a couple months from turning 25 I am now 28. About 3 and a half years though it has improved aloglt, Child neglect, not fitting in, too much death at an early age, rejection,shamed for wanting to see my half sister, actually shamed for alot of crap sudden breakup after 6 years (she tried Molly and left me for her dealer) weed, too much alcohol depression after breakup feelings of not being good enough, anxiety, which led to pbisical sensations, which led to health anxiety, which led to Google, which led to multiple panic attacks daily, Inposture syndrome at job I hate. Pressure of not losing a job because my family was Leaning on me financially. 40 thousand dollar school debt tons of hospital bills due to anxiety Wow I never realized all the crap I was gong thru. No wonder I have dp.

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Posted 02 December 2018 - 01:04 PM

From smoking cannabis, which cause me a really hard trip. The next day I then watched videos about how others experience trips and a video about stages of ego death. I felt extremely anxious and started having panic attacks. This attack goes on for 5 days straight and turned into a major episode of depression which then lasted for 3 months. During which time, everything collapses before me and I began having DP/DR, several mental collapses/breakdowns, and unstoppable existential thoughts aaaaaaand things are never the same again. 

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Posted 11 January 2019 - 11:47 PM

I first started having DP/DR episodes when I was 13 years old. I was bullied, intorverted and shy and had low self esteem. I also had some strange thoughts about eating and depression as well as anxiety. then one day in january right after my 13th birthday I got sick. I was running a high fever. I remember we had a large snow and my mom and dad wasn't able to get me to a doctor and an ambulance wasn't able to come get me cause I lived in eastern Kentucky and in the country so the roads wasn't great to begin with. So basically mom did what she could to keep the fever down. Then one day I woke up and I felt stuffed. like my body was dead. People's faces were smudged and I felt like the world was a dream. I begged my mom and dad to help me but nobody knew what was wrong. they took me to several doctors but nobody knew what was wrong with me. Finally, a doctor put me in the hospital and for a month they tested me and tried several medications. They put me on Tegretol sent me home with a diagnosis of epilepsy and I proceeded to try and deal. I had a very hard teenage years. I married when I was 18 and left home. My symptoms got better after I had my first baby and for years I was symptom free. I don't think I had epilepsy to begin with. the neurologist I saw a couple of years ago when my "symptoms" returned said I was misdiagnosed and I did not have epilepsy. I seeked help with psychologists and did some research on my own and that is how I figured out I had DP/DRD. I"m still floundering. I am changing mental health professionals as the one I have has no idea what he is doing and cannot help me. I don't feel any hope that things will change for me. It feels like I am just going deeper down the rabbit hole with each passing day and I think that eventually I'll disappear. That makes my anxiety worse. I don't think I will ever see the real world again. my appointment with my new doctor is next month. time will tell.

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