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Are you experiencing BM and/or cogntive impairment/decline?

  1. Yes, i'm paralyzed by BM/CI (23 votes [35.94%])

    Percentage of vote: 35.94%

  2. Voted Yes, this is one of my main symptoms (22 votes [34.38%])

    Percentage of vote: 34.38%

  3. Yah, i gots me sum of dat (5 votes [7.81%])

    Percentage of vote: 7.81%

  4. My intellectual capacity has not changed since getting DP (4 votes [6.25%])

    Percentage of vote: 6.25%

  5. I have an overactive mind (10 votes [15.62%])

    Percentage of vote: 15.62%

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#25 MichaelTheAnhedonic

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 12:35 PM

Nope. 0 psychotic-like symptoms.



#26 Hedgehog fuzz

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 01:08 PM

doesn't sound like schizophrenia. maybe more like dp/dr. 



#27 MichaelTheAnhedonic

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 01:46 PM

And when I'm on venlafaxine and trying to fall asleep something weird and fascinating (in some way) is happening. The thing is, even though I'm anhedonic I'm constantly playing one game. So, sometimes when I'm starting to zone out in my bed, my mind is creating some kind of simulation. I can play in my head just like I'm awake. It's not dream. More like controlled dream. Matrix-like thing. 



#28 REB

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 02:26 PM

Not to be an asshole, but i don't think this is the right place to discuss compulsive gayness . Unless it's somehow related to blank mindedness. Take it to PM, guys.



#29 MichaelTheAnhedonic

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 02:41 PM

The biggest impact on my blank mind had psychostimulant called ethylphenidate. It has been delegalized and I'm using methylphenidate instead. It's much safer but it's not powerful as ethyl. EPH was making me almost psychotic on the comedown. My mind was racing with unlogical thoughts, couldn't sleep, everything was 10x worse. 



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Posted 22 December 2016 - 04:46 PM

I had psychotic elements to this when this all first started a few months ago. I stopped myself going into full blown psychosis through willpower but it was hard. It was the most horrendous thing imaginable. Life is horrendous now though with this blank mind. I used to have a constant internal dialogue and self-directedness towards actions and goals but now...nothing. 

 

Same.



#31 mezona

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:15 PM

Same as dream and hedgehog

#32 Hedgehog fuzz

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:31 PM

compulsive gayness? fuck off 



#33 Hedgehog fuzz

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:33 PM

sorry REB, i take it back. having a bad time. 



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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:38 PM

I am a second behind everything. My processing speed is like a tortoise. 

 

I fee like I am dying, although at least with death its over with, this is like pointless halfway-human existence. I must recover my quickenss and intellect. I used to be able to boss my academic work before, with a lot of effort because I wasn't a genius but not stupid either, and now I can't do anything.

 

This evening I have noticed how slow I am. I just made a drink in my kitchen and it's like I am so slow.

 

I am about to email a researcher about treatments for DP/DR.

 

Now I am thinking out loud. I've written to people and done a bit here and a bit there, but I need to get my life sorted and get the right help. Nobody can do either of those overnight, but there is SO MUCH to talk about (including compulsive gayness as our brother has pointed out) that I need to get cracking.

 

I'm going to get referred to the Depersonalisation Unit and see what these guys and gals can do for me.  



#35 REB

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:54 PM

That's ok, mate. Poorly worded by me. That's actually what i thought OCHD was.



#36 REB

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Posted 22 December 2016 - 05:59 PM

Many people from here have been at the DP unit. I know there are some threads about it on here. You could read up on that and see if it's worth it.







Also tagged with one or more of these keywords: Blank Mind, Cognitive Impairment, Cognitive Decline, Idiopathic Mental Retardation, Horror, Despair, Agony, Dissociative Brain Injury

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