Hey everyone! Hope all is good in the hood. It should... life's good! (sorry... I get weird at night)
Anyway, I decided to join the site to not only help myself but to hopefully help out some of you as well. I'm in recovery stage right now and am looking for some insight on recovery. I feel like I have a good grasp on my DP symptoms, it's just all the other things that go along with it and my situation that I'm struggling with.
I'm a 20 year old guy from the Northeast U.S. I'm a sophomore in college studying mechanical engineering tech. I love living my life to the fullest, spending time outdoors, mountain biking, hiking, snowboarding, and so much more. My goals for the future include traveling all over the world, making long lasting genuine friendships, inspiring others, making a positive impact while I'm here on earth, and facing my biggest fears and struggles until I'm at peace with my life again!
It was about 4 years ago that I realized I felt out of it all the time... and that was when I realized I had DP. My DP is childhood trauma/dysfunctional family induced. My mother is a narcissist and both of my parents have been part-time parents. I've had a bizarre childhood. At the time of my DP realization, I was so scared and I legit thought I was crazy. I didn't know what DP was or what was wrong with me. Four years later, I'm no longer coping anymore. I'm not letting it scare me and I'm taking action to get better and to get my life back. For anyone reading this who's struggling, I promise you that you are okay, you're not crazy, and I promise you have what it takes to recover even if it may not seem like it at the moment. You just have to believe in yourself. There have been times that my feelings of DP have completely vanished. One piece of advice I have: get out there and live your life... even if it scares you... even if your DP makes you feel awful. I recently bought my first motorcycle. Going out in public scares me. Social interaction scares me. Unfamiliar areas and things beyond my control scare me. All the idiots on the roads scare me. But you know what? You can not let DP and the fear it creates break you. Getting on that bike makes me feel more alive more than anything else in this world. It's like my problems drop and I'm free and at peace. It's a high. I find myself laughing like a kid on it for no reason besides feeling amazing and alive. Face your fears. Put DP in your past. Live your life. You got this. We got this!
I've been spending a lot of time with Depersonalizationrecovery.com/Harris Harrington's total integration program and it has helped me so much. I'd say I'm nearly half way there in the recovery stage with no plans of stopping now! Looking forward to spending time on here and getting to know some of you.