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''I am not normal''

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#1 ·
I often see people with mental health problems use this phrase and in the past I've often thought it a lot about myself and have felt shame at the fact that I maybe don't act like the people I surround myself with. As in I thought I'm maybe a bit weirder than others, maybe a bit more out of control in some respects and maybe don't have the same aspirations as them........

I have wished I was skinnier, taller, had bigger breasts, happier, bigger butt, had a better job, was better educated, prettier, had a steady relationship, trusted people more, literally everything under the sun and to list them all would take me all day. Over the years I have taken a beating from myself on a daily basis by basically wishing I was anyone but myself.

I have said to many people over these last 4 years that ''I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL!!!!!!'' or ''I JUST WANT TO BE LIKE THEM OR YOU OR ANYONE BUT ME''. I've even had people say to me ''Why can't you act like a normal person?''. I've also been told I'm crazy or weird.

If I had been paid a quid for every time I've thought something awful about myself or had someone else say something equally as awful to me I'd be abnormally rich.

However, the thing that people forget and what I forgot is that ''normal'' is actually a programme on my washing machine, it is a setting on my phone, it's a setting on my fridge/freezer. Normal doesn't apply to people as unlike my phone or my washing machine we are all superbly 'unique'. There will never be another you and there will never be another me (although I'm not sure that's such a bad thing :p)

I guess what I'm trying to say is that this ''normal'' that everyone searches for or aspires to be is a universe that literally no fucker lives in and trying to reach it made me SO unhappy!!!!
 
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I couldn't agree more.

Hopefully most people come to this realisation sooner or later.

I feel there is so much pressure on people to conform to an unrealistic ideal (whether it be attractiveness, intelligence, wealth etc) but I feel women have an especially raw deal with this.

Unfortunately we have a media and consumer society that is served by the promotion of these kinds of messages. "If only I was x, then I wouldn't feel y"

It may sound like overused, trite rhetoric, but the feeling of completeness and belonging can only come from within, independent of anything external.

You are already more than enough. Perfect, in fact. :)
 
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