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#1 lifewithouthecolor

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Posted 05 September 2015 - 09:07 AM

Recently my depersonalization has gotten to the point where I don't feel like myself whatsoever. My own internal voice seems not necessarily unfamiliar but as if it doesn't belong to me and I'm just listening in. I have experienced complete ego death twice now, in which I felt completely non existent, and after each experience my sense of self has only become more distorted. Does OCD make depersonalization because I have been having endless existential angst to the point where day to day life is nearly a horror. I think the existential angst made my depersonalization worse but now it feels like it's not reversible, and it's terrifying me. I just want to feel like myself again but it feels like such a distant idea. My own family seems like strangers, sleeping is my only escape from all this. Please help.

#2 Sam1814

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Posted 05 September 2015 - 09:54 AM

I'm in the same boat. I'm sorry for us both. 😞

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Posted 05 September 2015 - 10:32 AM

my best advise is to tell your parents if they dont know already and find someone who specializes in dp/dr. yes their are people that do



#4 CoffeeGirl9

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Posted 05 September 2015 - 07:33 PM

Recently my depersonalization has gotten to the point where I don't feel like myself whatsoever. My own internal voice seems not necessarily unfamiliar but as if it doesn't belong to me and I'm just listening in. I have experienced complete ego death twice now, in which I felt completely non existent, and after each experience my sense of self has only become more distorted. Does OCD make depersonalization because I have been having endless existential angst to the point where day to day life is nearly a horror. I think the existential angst made my depersonalization worse but now it feels like it's not reversible, and it's terrifying me. I just want to feel like myself again but it feels like such a distant idea. My own family seems like strangers, sleeping is my only escape from all this. Please help.


I don't even remember or know I have a family anymore. Not only am I no existent, so is everyone else. I can totally relate with you. I am so far gone I don't remember what normal feels like at all. I have made it through this several times. And every time it feels worse then anything. I don't know how I came out of it before. My dreams are more real then real life. I sleep anytime I can





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