I'm sick of people telling me that I'm "finding myself" or "figuring out who I am". Okay, shut up. I'm not twelve and forming my personality. I'm 26 and have depersonalization disorder. I'm also not confused. I know very well what I'm doing. Am I struggling? Yes, most definitely. Do I lack self worth? No, absolutely not. I just had a break down of self. Which is also different from a breakdown of personality. I am still a stable person when depersonalization hits. I just can't feel it the same way other people can. But don't belittle me and insult me by saying that I'm "finding myself". Is there anyone else that feels like when you try to describe dp to people, it completely misses the mark? It's either "oh yeah! I get that too all the time". Or it's "it just takes some time to figure out who you are as a person". Shut. Up. Unless you wake up in the morning and look down at your limbs and wonder how they belong to your body or you look in the mirror and your image looks like a stranger, don't try to talk to me about this.
Things that depersonalization is not:
-Anxiety
-Depression
-Confusion
-Lack of identity. (It's a dissociative break in identity, which is much different from just a lack of understanding of who you are as a person)
Do ya'll just wanna nominate each other for most misunderstood population of people? I am sick of needing metaphors to describe my state of being and still have it fall short. Do I keep trying to educate or give up?
Things that depersonalization is not:
-Anxiety
-Depression
-Confusion
-Lack of identity. (It's a dissociative break in identity, which is much different from just a lack of understanding of who you are as a person)
Do ya'll just wanna nominate each other for most misunderstood population of people? I am sick of needing metaphors to describe my state of being and still have it fall short. Do I keep trying to educate or give up?