I wanted to share this information with people since I think it could really shed some light in some peoples problems with Depersonalization.
I originally thought that I got my first Derpersonalization and Derealization, including the dreaded panic attacks and feeling of disappearing into nothingness, from recreational drugs and alcohol. I still think those played an important role in where I am today, but I have discovered a catalyst I have been wondering about for quite some time.
In previous years, I experimented with various "street" drugs like MDMA, Cannabis, Mushrooms, Ketamine, and Cocaine. I am not trying to suggest that these didnt play factors in my Depersonalization, but I used them as responsibly as one could, and never had DP/DR or panic attacks.
Looking back at my medical records, I noticed I was treated with a drug called Azithromycin. Azithromycin is an antibiotic useful for the treatment of bacterial infections. I had strep throat or something similar to that, and was prescribed this medication. The morning after I took my first dose is when I had my first Depersonalization, Derealization, fear of losing my mind, fear of fading into nothingness, and all the other symptoms that come with the DP experience.
I had always attributed this first episode of Depersonalization with MDMA, Cannabis, and Alcohol, from the previous weekend. Again, I am not saying these did not play a part, but now I have some evidence that Azithromycin might have triggered it all. If anything, I want this to be known as a possible cause and something to look into if anyone else has ever been treated with it.
Now, I no longer use the "party" drugs that I used to, I am not the same person I was 5 years ago. If anything, this DP/DR has put me on a path to becoming a better person. I have made huge strides in my health and well being over the past 5 years. It has been a real journey, one that I am still on, and will be on for quite some time. I say that in a positive light.
Additionally, after few years of maintaining my life through "natural" means, exercise, healthy diet, routine sleep, socializing, accomplishing goals outside of my comfort zone, using supplements and herbs, I still have felt the need for help. So after a few years of being medication-free, for the most part, I have found something that has been helping. I have been on Vortioxetine, a newer antidepressant, for just over a month. After some initial start up side effects, I am feeling better on it and doing pretty good. And let me say I was very, VERY, against being on medications again. I tried everything I could instead of going back on. But I pushed myself to just trust my Doctor, even though I still dont fully trust the industry they practice in, and things are going well.
I just wanted to share this, in the hopes it might help someone else, and to give some hope to people who feel hopeless. Each persons DP/DR may come from different sources, medical, chemical, psychological, trauma, and a myriad of other possible causes, but we all share the struggle together.
Here are some links on Azithromycin, if anyone is curious to read more.
I have been using probiotics recently as well, and I think they are helping out a lot in combination to my other treatment.
I believe that antibiotics, which may help greatly for some infections and issues, also may kill off the good gut bacteria in your system, which can cause all sorts of bad side effects.
Anyways, thanks for reading and let me know if you have any input, disagreements, or opinions.