thats why weed became my teacher because its not just giving anxiety it also gives you some insight while or after the experience... i also had some terrible trips on it but i never support my anxiety i always try to break the rules and i dont always get bad experiences since then..
now i dont want to say smoke weed...in your case its maybe not a good idea cause you get dp/dr long after smoking..i just get it while tripping when i smoke more than a low dose..and you really smoked too much man...even i wouldnt smoke a whole blunt...sry..but are you crazy man...thats way to much cause you have no tolerance and dp which doesnt mix well...anyway im glad you survived
I'm actually feeling a lot better today. More or less about as recovered as I was before smoking (60-80%), but I still feel like it kinda set me back somehow. Not really sure to be honest because today has been one of my best days in a way, I keep getting flashes of what life was like before DP/DR.
So I agree that it seems to have benefited me in some way but I definitely smoked too much. I was even sharing the blunt, and tapped out after I really started to get scared. I told myself that I was only going to smoke reggie when I came back to weed, but my friend assured me that it wasn't super loud shit even though it was some purp. I don't blame him though because he is a heavy smoker and what is strong to him is not even close to what is to most people.
I am admittedly still holding out hope that I will be able to return to weed one day, but when I do it will absolutely be mids, and will probably only be a modest bowl at most. It's going to be really hard to avoid though, because all of my friends smoke and it's pretty much our main activity together
One afterthought, I was on about 0.25mg of lorazepam during the trip which probably saved me from going completely insane. But it also probably made me more willing to smoke again which was in all honesty dumb as shit. I think I really needed to get the message that I can't touch with the stuff while I'm recovering so perhaps it couldn't have been avoided.