Boy, this quarantine sure leads to some weird overthinking and crazy thoughts.
It's been about 4 months since I last went to school and saw my friends, I've never been out to school for this long and that could be the reason, but why do I feel like none of my memories make sense or belong to me, it's like someone put them inside my head and all of the Pre-DPDR memories I think of now date back to 2-5 years ago and not just those few months ago? This gives me stress and a lot of anxiety, I think that I'm a bit crazy, when I know that's impossible because if I'm self-aware of my "crazy" situation that means I'm not. I also over-analyze life a lot, even this forum seems weird to me and the entirety of life, like life is an actual unscripted movie that requires your will and choices and you cannot stop it in place, neither can anyone else. The biggest thoughts I have about life for example are "What is this "life"?, What is it made of, How am I capable of moving my eyes, nose, mouth and other body parts just with my brain, telepathically. The memory "symptom" is like, I can recall stuff that happened yesterday, last week and the months I spent in quarantine with my DPDR, but it's hard to believe I used to live a normal life and go to school, socialise a lot with friends and people I knew, it all seems odd to me, but I remember.
I have quit this forum about a month ago and now I came back, because I'm scared. Scared of being alone, to actually go insane and being permanently stuck like this the rest of my "life" if that's what you want to call it. These symptoms also cause a feeling of alienation, like I don't exactly recognize anyone I once knew, but I still have memories.
If anyone could respond and explain or tell me how to deal with this and what was your experience with this, I would appreciate it.