Covid makes things so much worse.
You are answering questions so I have a few.
Do you have hypervigilance/hypersensitivity/? Basically things scare you that didn't before. May be you get a shiver or adrenaline rush when the phone rings or there is a noise.
Sensitivity to sound etc..?
Panic/Anxiety stuff? Like I can get burning skin sensation. All kinds of shit. Reading back I believe you had anxiety stuff.
All these things are making it really hard. The funny thing is I think the DP/DR is the thing I am the best with. The first one I talk about is a tough one. I have been meditating. Mindfulness Meditation. And I can be meditating and then there is a sound. It can be a pop in the wood floor or somebody slams a car door or honks or whatever and it will scare me. Jolt me. Not always though. Sometimes it happens and sometimes it doesn't. It can range from being really bad to not at all. I know it can go away cause i've had it go away. I know it can get better. I know if you are distracting and doing stuff it isn't a real issue for instance I drove today and did some stuff and nothing happened. No real issue. But the other day I was making dinner and the phone rang and I got a real big jolt of adrenaline! It could be I was (or subconciously) was afraid of talkign to somebody? I dont know. I'd like to go back to not being afraid of stuff like I was a few months ago.
The big stuff that helped last time
1. Getting rid of stress (I can sorta do that this time. I've done some things in that dept)
2. Going back to work and getting distracted (Covid. thats not really happening now sadly)
3. Clonezepam. (My GP and my Psychiatrist are not in to the dosage or duration I had last time. more or less .5 morning 1mg night for 4-5 months on and like 5 months taper.)
Then a lot of not feeding the monster. Doing hobbies.