is there anyone else here who's having trouble during the pandemic? I recovered multiple times in the past from bouts of DP but this time it's kind of different.
I was quite good at handling the stress of lockdown etc for the first months. I even finished all my exams and I wasn't even so bothered by it, except for constantly checking when borders would open since my boyfriend is working abroad and I haven't seen him in 8 months :/
But then last week I read the news that borders weren't gonna open before 2021, then I got a very bad cold, I got scared, at the same time cases are rising again here (Italy), I was in the house for a week and that reminded me of lockdown (some sort of PTSD). So I started researching obsessively about if, how and when this will be over and I learnt during my DP bouts that this is something you should never do because the internet is BRUTAL. And also, I have this weird thought that even when things go back to normal I will not be able to be normal again. This is exactly the same thing I thought while recovering from DP and I know it's a trick of my brain.
Now I'm stuck into this loop and I can't think about anything else. All the things that kept me going and gave me hope and joy just seem blah now. I don't think this is the typical DP I've experienced in the past because I'm functional, and it wasn't triggered by a panic attack like all the others. but all the symptoms are mildly there. The thing that especially makes me sad is that I don't really wanna talk to my boyfriend, even though he's extremely supportive and I love him very much.
I know DP very well by now and I'm not THAT scared, definitely bothered though. I plan on going back to my university city next month because that might give me some feeling of normalcy and I just hate my hometown. Has anyone been through similar things during these dire times?