My dissociation has been slowly getting worse for 18 months. When it gets worse, it is like I am sent further into a different level of awareness/degree of consciousness. Much in the same way that it is difficult to describe being drunk to someone who has never been drunk, words fall short when I try to describe how I experience dissociation as a degenerative disease. It feels like a certain chunk of my brain has slowly eroded. Each time I get worse, I experience reality in a fundamentally more dissociated way. Its like a whole different part of the brain system you take for granted as being stable takes jumps back. This is why it is almost impossible for me to describe to my doctors, as I feel like I fall outside of the current medical knowledge.
Does anyone else have similar experiences? I've had spect scans, eeg's, mri's, and qeeg's that pretty much rule out real brain damage, so that is that. What could possibly be happening?