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#1 FEM

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Posted 24 July 2020 - 07:37 PM

Hi, I'm Viktor and I'm 21 years old and I'm from Poland :)


My derealization started 6 years ago after a marijuana-induced panic attack. It manifested itself slightly with a change of surroundings and a squeal in the ears. I have been living with it normally for 6 years, I did not wonder what it is, on the Polish forum I read that sometimes it is like that after marijuana and to ignore it and live with it. I have lived with it until now, I did not mind this strange state because it did not affect my life. After these 6 years I broke up with my girlfriend, it was a strong emotional experience for me, I could not stand it, I got depressed and anxious about hurting someone, schizophrenia, and other mental illnesses. I was cut off from the world, my feelings, I lost my passions ...
After fears: schizophrenia, border, generalized anxiety
I started to fear Derealization / Depersonalization

I remembered that I had some parts of it for 6 years and it didn't pass so I added to myself that the state in which I am now will not go away either, I have no idea what I was doing, I allowed these states wrong, I was never afraid of them. I see that there are more of us abroad, that's why I registered on this forum and I hope you will help me. In Poland, doctors do not want to talk about derealization / depersonalization, they avoid this topic. They say it's a symptom of anxiety but I haven't had any anxiety in these 6 years. Now that I have it, I feel it's over, I have no one to turn to. In Poland, we have only one person who knows about DP and fought with it for 5 years, finally gave up and allowed her to do so in a year. But I never struggled with it, can you give me some advice? Thank you

 

 

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Posted 24 July 2020 - 09:45 PM

Hi Viktor. Im sorry you've been having such a hard time with your mental health these last few years.

A lot of people say that depersonalisation and derealization are coping mechanisms. They detatch you from reality when you're in a lot of mental pain to stop you from hurting too much. It's important that you try to work through any issues you've been having with your general mental health.

There are a lot of resources on this website that I hope can help you. I reccomend you check them out. It's important to have a good mental outlook and be positive to get through this. Remember that it's not Permanent. You will come out of this better.

I know that it can be hard because other people do not understand what you are going through. You can feel very alone. But please know that we feel for you and want to see you be happier. I wish you the best of luck and if you have any more specific questions, I will try to answer them for you. 🙂


I am sorry if I was hard to understand at all.

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Posted 25 July 2020 - 01:46 AM

Do you drink alcohol?

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Posted 25 July 2020 - 10:31 AM

Hi Viktor. Im sorry you've been having such a hard time with your mental health these last few years.

A lot of people say that depersonalisation and derealization are coping mechanisms. They detatch you from reality when you're in a lot of mental pain to stop you from hurting too much. It's important that you try to work through any issues you've been having with your general mental health.

There are a lot of resources on this website that I hope can help you. I reccomend you check them out. It's important to have a good mental outlook and be positive to get through this. Remember that it's not Permanent. You will come out of this better.

I know that it can be hard because other people do not understand what you are going through. You can feel very alone. But please know that we feel for you and want to see you be happier. I wish you the best of luck and if you have any more specific questions, I will try to answer them for you.


I am sorry if I was hard to understand at all.

And for 6 years I thought I had brain damage and would stay that way, I just read something about derealization / depersonalization and I didn't notice any big symptoms. People wrote that the houses are made of cardboard boxes, etc., it did not suit me at all. I woke up and felt as if something had changed, but I didn't know what, I felt like in some dream. I was at a psychiatrist's, but unfortunately she didn't know what was wrong with me, so I gave up the search and said that apparently I would be like that, so I fully allowed it and it didn't pass. Now I have all the symptoms of anxiety depersonalization and I don't know. I still have in mind that it has not passed for 6 years, it will not work anymore and that this is something wrong with me. I'm afraid to accept it because I don't think I can. After this time, I drank alcohol occasionally, I smoked 3 times and there was nothing by it. I am trying to get to the Polish expert on Derealization, but in Poland it is also a besieged topic and before I get there, I must kill myself. I am glad that I found your community, maybe there is hope for me :( We adopt the tactics of Acceptance, Mental Risk, Allow everything that gives fear and dp. I try to convince myself that DP is a great state and wants to have it, I want to do it on the opposite side I'm on Rexetin because I didn't function well with it DP came down in 10% but it's still not enough How to introduce real acceptance?



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Posted 25 July 2020 - 10:31 AM

Do you drink alcohol?

Sometimes



#6 FEM

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Posted 25 July 2020 - 10:34 AM

Our expert on depersonalization gave up and came out of 5 years of depersonalization in six months .. I have no idea why it didn't work out.






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