Will it really eventually get easier to deal with? Like is it really nothing to be afraid of? Ive listened to Alan and Eckhart and it used to calm me with other fears but now im not so sure, espessially if it means my emotions dont exist either, then how is it valid to feel anything or experiance anything?
Something I would say to anyone who is worried about questioning reality is to explore that idea to an extent that you are not afraid of it anymore. Read/listen to Alan Watts and Eckhart Tolle who both talk about this concept in a reassuring and comforting way.
It's nothing to be afraid of ultimately.
The idea really doesnt bother you? Like if you really consider it, it doesnt? I just wanna not be bothered by it at this point. Is it really not something to worry about? I feel like the idea that even my emotions dont exist changes things and that its all invalid and pointless to experiance if it doesnt exist.
why does it matter? Why does any of this matter? I couldn't care less whether this is actual, fundamental reality or not, whether my existence is solipsistic, etc. It makes absolutely no difference