ali3n notebook 2.0

today i start taking clonazepam (3 drops at night).
and i used to take 1 citalopram, but now i'll be taking 1 and 1/2 so thats what i'm going to be taking daily from now on. lets hope it does something 💊💦 (tbh i wanted to try cbd lol but whatever, if this doesn't work, thats probably going to be my next step)

not an improvement update,
just a regular one its been almost 3 months since i started taking citalopram (and it feels as tho its been ages)
and the only thing i can say is that i feel more calm, not as much as i would like to, but i'm not as anxious 
also, here is something that i wrote one of these days as a quick note: << it feels as...

i've been spending less and less time in this forum, so i think i'll stop coming here regularly (specially because i'm starting college on monday)
i'll just keep updating this blog on how i feel with the citalopram.
these last 3 days i've had a weird abdominal pain that i think is also a side effect.?
i will come back when there's improvement/news
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(i meant to post this earlier, on jan 20) so according to my calculations

i have been taking citalopram for 31 days, but i think i'll wait the other 14 so that its 31 days of taking 20mg. so far, i think the side effects are...

📖✒there was a time (back in june 2018) where i was beginning to feel better... but then i started to feel worse (i think in october). and i remember that i documented how i felt in june (i didnt remembered that it was june, i checked this in that mini journal entry)
by checking what i recorded, i discovered that, back in may 2018, i was taking...

so, two weeks into taking 10mg of citalopram, dpdr has been weird/scary/worse its almost as if i dont exist at all (but i heard thats normal when adjusting to this med)
and i'm very confused and disoriented when i wake up (this is why i also hate taking naps, but i take them anyway because the amitriptyline withdrawal makes me feel tired) also,...

i find that when i listen to music, i feel nostalgic, and it makes me feel like me again, if only for a moment (especially when i listen to music i heard before this started)
i also enjoy to dance and sing along

i've started taking citalopram about a week ago (10mg) and i'll continue for another week more, then i'll up the dose to 20mg.   so far i had been taking amitriptiline (for about 3-4 months) wich did nothing for my dpdr (except i sometimes felt "peace" but 98% of...