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#463385 How an injection in the neck cured my depersonalization and severe anxiety!

Posted by eddy1886 on 27 May 2017 - 11:43 PM

Hey guys unfortunatley i still have moments where my depersonalization comes back but in a very controllable way; so it's not a MIRACLE CURE! Maybe I will do the procedure again haha. At least im still calm and didn't have panic attacks, nightmares, thinking im going crazy and depression since the first injection.

I also read that many patients with ptsd needed two injectionts in the neck at the same time to get the best result.

I would only recommend this procedure if your depersonalization is combinated with extreme anxiety.

Here is the newest video:

https://m.youtube.co...h?v=2067AbwCHqs

Im confused....The title on this thread is..............

How an injection in the neck cured my depersonalization and severe anxiety!

 

But yet you just said ".........Hey guys unfortunatley i still have moments where my depersonalization comes back but in a very controllable way; so it's not a MIRACLE CURE!   "

 

Are you "CURED" or not...

 

When I say cured I mean is your DP and anxiety gone COMPLETELY ?

 

This is gonna raise the debate of what defines cured....To me cured means that the DP goes away and doesnt come back and even more so the sufferer stops fearing it coming back...The fact is if you still fear DP coming back it means you still have anxiety about it inside you and hence you still ahve the potential inside for it to raise its ugly head...

 

I actually believe what has happened here is that the injection has made your DP manageable...

 

Sorry for being so cynic but medication keeps my DP manageable....Is this not the same thing...




#463377 Shocked at the world. RIP Manchester victims

Posted by eddy1886 on 27 May 2017 - 11:32 PM

Unfortunately the world is a beautiful place being destroyed by lots of bad people who are power hungry....

 

You will find that greed is at the heart of all the bad stuff that goes on in the world...

 

The battle for oil, the environment being destroyed, drug wars, racism etc etc etc....Its alll for greed and power...

 

We in the western world are most guilty...We are obsessed with materialism while third world countries suffer in silence....

 

The sad thing about life is that most people do not realise how lucky they are and how blesed they are to have what they have in life...Most people believe more money, a better job, nicer clothes, a trophy girlfriend, a fancy car etc etc etc will bring them happiness...Im afraid if you cant find happiness from within you are never gonna find it....Looking outward for peace of mind and contentment is totally the wrong place to be searching...

 

I realised all this when DP took my life from me....The fact is if you dont have your health and in particular peace of mind you have nothing...




#462553 How an injection in the neck cured my depersonalization and severe anxiety!

Posted by eddy1886 on 25 May 2017 - 05:26 PM

Very very interesting !!!




#461914 I can't imagine things?

Posted by eddy1886 on 22 May 2017 - 11:30 PM

Its a concentration thing i believe...

 

DP f***s up concentration levels so much that it makes us FEEL like we are forgetting things and also cannot focus on internal mental images...

 

I call it washing machine head....In my own case my mind constantly runs at 500 MPH and stuff just goes round and round in there...As a result I often find it difficult to focus on mental images......It makes multi tasking practically impossible...

 

Im sure the blank mind DPers will say the opposite here (I wish my mind was going round and round, Its better than nothing at all)

 

The fact is a racing mind is just as bad as a totally blank one....And both cause serious issues with concentration levels...One because there is too much going on and the other because there is too little going on...

 

I feckin hate this condition in all its forms with a passion.....




#460874 DP / DR relapse! Advice plsease!

Posted by eddy1886 on 18 May 2017 - 05:30 PM

Medicine may be the answer!


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#460250 Someone please help me

Posted by eddy1886 on 16 May 2017 - 04:34 PM

I'm not sure what I was expecting, maybe some help/advice, I don't know. The guy was fine really, it was just talking about it that triggered it, I'm so easily pushed over the edge right now. I don't think therapy is really for me. 

I used to dissociate something terrible in therapy one on one sessions...Almost used to feel too deeply connected with the therapist that it actually scared me...

 

In fact usually when im in close one on one situations I become hyper aware of the person in front of me...almost like i feel they are sensing or reading my every thought or action....It actually feels invasive almost....Kinda like im being studied...

 

Very odd...

 

Or just very paranoid lol....


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#460074 Anyone else have it 24/7

Posted by eddy1886 on 16 May 2017 - 01:10 AM

So you're feeling normal otherwise, thanks to the meds? Not numbed out or anything?

I still have alot of DP symptoms but the medicine takes the overwhelming power out of the symptoms and as a result i can function....I have never been totally DP free since i deveoped it but as a result of meds I can function....And from where i was that is huge for me....When i had DP in its chronic form I was literally left totally incapacitated squirming in my bed in absolute hell....Low dose anti psychotic took me out of that state and handed me a big chunk of my life back...

 

I wouldnt wish were I was on my worst enemy...I came so close to taking my own life several times..In fact at the time if euthanasia had been legal in this country I would have taken that option in an instant....Not today though...Today im normally a 6 out of 10 and that is fine by me....




#459346 Different

Posted by eddy1886 on 14 May 2017 - 12:52 PM

Ive felt different to everybody else since I was a very young child....I always felt like I interpreted situations, experiences and people totally different to all those around me (even my close family) 

 

Im a bit of a loner too...always have been...I always hated when friends and family forced me to go places and to social gatherings that just didnt interest me...Ive always hated crowds and noisy places....

 

I love my own company and hate when people try to push me into social situations I dont feel comfortable in....Nowadays I refuse to people please and if I dont feel comfortable in an environment or situation or social event I excuse myself and leave (without feeling guilty and feeling obliged to explain myself)

 

Ive also always felt smarter than alot of people around me (that probably sounds a bit egotistical)...Like I see the bigger picture and think more logically...In fact i have found over the years that being smarter than others intimidates them and they usually retort in an aggressive manner...I was bullied something terrible in school for being the smart kid...To fit in I often pretended to be dumber and remained quiet...

 

Not nowadays though...I dont take crap from anyone now...And if you are talking crap to me about stuff you know absolutely nothing about you are gonna be put in your place.....If you just talk the talk and dont walk the walk you will be avoided by me...Cant be done with b********ers....Simply because I spent half my life apologizing to people for being honest and truthful and stating facts....NOT ANYMORE!




#459306 Anyone else not able to sleep- like, literally...no hyperbole

Posted by eddy1886 on 14 May 2017 - 12:47 AM

Its well known anxiety sufferers are always producing too much adrenaline....

 

Adrenalin is what gets us moving and keeps us alert and on our toes....

 

No wonder none of us can sleep (Properly)




#458202 No rest, no breaks. Just bs.

Posted by eddy1886 on 10 May 2017 - 08:19 PM

Hey. 

I'm writing this when I should be studying, but it really doesn't matter since this will take 5 minutes, and I'll be right back to studying after this so it's fine.
I just realized that since getting DP, my mind hasn't had a rest. I got it at the end of last summer, and since then it has been...eventful. For the first months into having DP, I was puzzled, confused and scared as to what I had, so I mostly spent my days at home instead of going outside and enjoying life, diving deep into DP, depression and anxiety, so, no actual rest there.
Soon, there came September, and school started up again. I wasn't happy, even though I knew what I had at that point (thanks google). Again, there came the torture of studying shit that I don't give a damn about, and other miscellaneous bullshit that school offers.
At that time I honestly thought it would be good for me, since it would obey me to speak to people and be active (ie it would take my mind out of DP), but I was wrong. Turns out that being stuck 8 hours a day in a classroom (with people you can't stand, might I add) doesn't help when you have something like this happening to you. Surprising, right?
Along with school, I also had various other things happening to me that were very damaging, and triggered my anxiety a lot. And here we are, almost summer again. And only now I'm realizing how little rest my mind has had, like at all.
I want to make this summer a summer where my head is able to have a break. Even though my life has been surrounded by DP, and even though I dwell a lot in DP, I didn't actually do anything to heal it.
I want my brain to have a rest from all the shenanigans that have been happening to me, and just go slow. I want to go outside more, I want to get my head out of social media. I'm not spending all day in my computer as I always do, and I'm going to try to just...chill. With no worries.
I really feel like all of these stuff play a major part in my DP...maybe that's just me.

That's all I wanted to say. Tell me about your opinions. 

What you are trying to say is you need to seriously slow down and DESTRESS!!!

Even very subtle stress is bad for this condition...

 

Toxic people and toxic situations (i.e. stress) make this condition a thousand times worse...

 

Take up a hobby that fascinates you and engages your mind (anything you get bored with easily is useless)

The other thing to do if you can is sleep more....I find extra sleep invaluable when I do manage to sleep...I have really bad insomnia so when my mind does decide it wants to close down I hit my bed ASAP and dont fight it no matter what time of day it is...




#457746 What was your life like before DP/DR ?

Posted by eddy1886 on 09 May 2017 - 10:30 PM

Sports lover, high achiever, social butterfly, outgoing, lover of life & "WEED ADDICT".....................................

 

Then WHALLOP!!!! In an instant one night whilst extremely high a switch flicked inside my mind and everything changed forever from that very moment.....

 

The only good thing to come out of that awful instance in my life was I never ever enjoyed weed again....In a way DP scared me away from drugs so I guess thats a positive out of a a negative....In fact I know for sure that if I had never developed DP at that moment I would be a complete weed burnout today....God works in mysterious ways I guess.....

 

Oddly enough DP played a huge role in me becoming the useful member of society I am today....Pre DP in my drinking and drug days I didnt give a f**k about anybody else in the world besides myself....I was self centered to the core and caught up in materialism...Image was everything to me....Fancy cars, clothes, money, trophy girfriends and personal gain were my motives for living......

 

Couldnt care less about any of that anymore.....I have since learned the hard way from my own experience and that of others I know that without your health (in all our cases on here "Mental Health")  money and materialism are not worth a f**k to any of us............

 

Your health (especially mental health) is your wealth....In fact its priceless....

 

The story of my boss in work speaks volumes.....A highly intelligent individual he worked morning noon and night from a very young age to get rich and for no other reason...His daughter was in a serious car accident at the age of 19 and ended up in a wheelchair....He spent huge amounts of money sending her to expert surgeon after expert surgeon all over the world (she was operated on a total of 30 times apparently) to get her to walk again...Nothing worked...The man now is now divorced, lives alone, has chronic health issues and has lost his ability to do the things he loved so much in life.....He is only 58....

 

Food for thought people!




#457730 Anyone else have it 24/7

Posted by eddy1886 on 09 May 2017 - 09:57 PM

24 / 7 in the early years until meds saved my life...

 

It is now episodic only during times of extreme stress....Hence i avoid stress like the plague...In fact I have slowed my life down totally over the last number of years...The fast pace of modern living was just too much for me to cope with...


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#457066 Someone please help me

Posted by eddy1886 on 07 May 2017 - 11:42 PM

The OCD will go away after a couple of weeks on the medication....SSRIs help immensely with OCD....Thats been my experience anyway...

 

I hate the way anxiety affects the way we think and act....My heart goes out to ya mrt


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#456858 Having trouble understanding people

Posted by eddy1886 on 07 May 2017 - 12:24 AM

DP sufferers think at a higher level compared to "normal" people....I believe we are all smarter, deeper thinkers and have highly analytical minds....

 

I firmly believe all DP sufferers are at a higher level of intelligence and insight into things than every average person...

 

Have you ever met a dumb person who suffers with mental health issues....Probably not...... because dumb people seem to just not care about anything at all in life.....Hence no anxiety...And when theres no anxiety theres no mental ill health...




#456850 Not Convinced Full Recovery is Possible

Posted by eddy1886 on 07 May 2017 - 12:17 AM

Totally true in my own case....

 

BUT..........

 

Everybody is different......

 

Im sure plenty of people have made full recoveries...

 

The real issue is the definition of recovery....In my opinion you are only fully recovered from DP if you have recovered without meds (the natural way) , do not experience a single symptom any more and also DO NOT fear it coming back....EVER!!!

 

In my own case I dont fear episodes of DP anymore, take meds and function at a reasonable level on a daily basis....But im coming up to nearly 30 years with this condition and it is still as prominent in my life as it ever was (My meds keep it at bay) I now know I will have this condition until the day I die and have fully accepted that...This acceptance in itself has made my own personal DP less of an intruder in my life...I ran around for years searching for 100% recovery and all it did was worry me and stress me even more.....My attitude now is if its not totally broken to a million pieces dont try and fix it......Im now contented with a reasonably half decent repair job..... I say this because I can function at a reasonable level on a daily basis nowadays...When i was in the throws of chronic DP episodes (and i still get them from time to time) all bets are of...When im DP sick I can do absolutely nothing except squirm in my bed in mental hell....