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eddy1886

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#429417 Does summer help ?

Posted by eddy1886 on 16 February 2017 - 10:12 PM

SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is very real....

 

Its much more common in the Northern Hemisphere where winters are long and dark...The theory is that we are being starved of the most natural form of vitamin D (Sunlight) in the long dark winter months and as a result feel depressed....For people prone to mental ill health issues this can turn from being just winter blues into all out clinical depression....

 

I myself experience depressive episodes much more frequently in winter than in summer....The difference proper decent long sunny days have on my mood is quite dramatic....As a result of this mood enhancement my DP symptoms drastically diminish too...

 

Its a scientific fact that the further away you get from the equator in the northern hemisphere the more common depression in winter becomes...

 

Ive tried sitting in front of SAD therapy lamps and also supplimenting my diet with extra vitamin D....None of it came even close to real sunlight as regards lifting my mood and hence my spirit...




#429298 i have no family, someone please help me.

Posted by eddy1886 on 16 February 2017 - 04:37 PM

Contact social services ASAP...They will help you...




#429154 Don't panic, you're going to at least get used to it

Posted by eddy1886 on 16 February 2017 - 06:52 AM

Ok i dont mean to be negative in any way...Im actually going to play the realist here...

 

If you dont know the difference STOP reading know...Cos it will trigger every newcomer or struggling person on here otherwise...

 

I can tell you that after 20 plus years of DP you DO NOT get used to it....What happens is you accept the fact that its for life and because you recognise all of the different crazy symptoms that youve had over the years for the bullshit they really are you become desensitized to them...

 

I dont suffer anywhere as near as badly with my DP or anxiety as I used to in the earlier years but I can tell you from personal experience I am not USED to DP and I still despise it for what it is....It has actually left me quite depressed and lost after all these years....When your a 6 out of 10 usually and then you go to zero out of 10 from time to time you learn to just soldier along with life as best ya can...You stop trying to achieve that wonderful ten out of ten happiness that life was supposed to bring us all because you realise its not realistic for you in your life time...

 

You just get on with things as best you can....I have basically stopped caring about the trials and tribulations of everyday life and have started looking after myself and my own needs.....If you told me the world was gonna end tomorrow I would be ok with that....Just like if you told me I was gonna live to be 150 but still have DP I would be ok with that too....Its not that im numb to emotion...Its that I just take life and DP for what they are now...Sometimes tough...sometimes ok...sometimes miserable...sometimes even happy.....

 

I live in the here and now...I live for today....I dont care anymore what happened in the past and I dont care anymore whats going to happen in the future...

 

There are 2 sure ways to keep this awful condition alive and kicking....Constantly dreading the future (Anxiety) AND Constantly regretting the past (Depression)

 

But how do you stop these thought processes  from going on inside a DP sufferers head...I really have no idea...Thats the million dollar question...




#425809 any coping skills?

Posted by eddy1886 on 07 February 2017 - 06:47 PM

The only advice I can give you is to eliminate as much stress in your life as is possible and be very gentle on yourself....Avoid toxic people who dont understand and tell you its all in your head...Surround yourself with caring considerate understanding people...Tell "PEP" talkers to go f**k themselves....Make people understand that you are not well and need patience and understanding and cant function as well as normal...Anybody who puts pressure on you to get better or pick yourself up is to be avoided...

 

You need support and understanding from loving caring friends and family...Not pep talks from pushy people basically ordering you to get on with things...

 

Be very selfish right now and put yourself first....

 

Do not be afraid to tell people straight up how it is for you and that you are suffering...Whether its your work, family, friends, doctors etc etc....MAKE them understand and realise that what you are going through is hell and no you wont feel better after a nap or a cup of tea...

 

Any level of stress right now is going to hinder your recovery....Remove all forms of it in your environment (Stressful people, places or things) Avoid it all...You can start to gradually readjust to normal stress slowly when you feel better...For now take everything extremely slowly and easy....Snails pace is required right now..




#425713 Newbie Here

Posted by eddy1886 on 07 February 2017 - 04:08 PM

This site is vital for DP sufferers worldwide....

 

Its the only properly organised source of genuine experiences, info and treatment options...Im sorry but most doctors and shrinks and therapists cant do s**t to help you with this condition....Although, I am sure there are some out there (Somewhere) who can help in some way with appropriate treatment...

 

Discovering this site changed my life for sure....

 

Its an amazing feeling of relief when you read other peoples personal experiences and symptoms and then suddenly the revelation hits you..... "OMG thats me!!! "Thats whats been wrong all along" "I am exactly like all those other people on there" "Thank f**k im not a total lunatic after all"

 

It might be just me but when that revelation hit me the powerful fear factor of my DP was probably halved....I wasnt cured but I wasnt alone anymore....And that was the worst thing about having this condition undiagnosed for many years....I was terrified I was the only one and would never get any help or relief from it...

 

Guess what....There are f*****g thousands and thousands of us out there...Probably many millions....We arent alone!...And the way the drug culture is all over the world now they are just gonna continue appearing out of the cracks in the ground over the next number of years and for the foreseeable future....The amount of young people using drugs on a regular basis is at epidemic levels....God love them all...How many of them will end up on here in a total state of panic and confusion and terror as to whats going on or worse still are left suffering in silence alone....The thought actually scares me knowing what I know and having experienced what ive personally experienced....DP is no way to exist for any young person with their whole life, dreams and ambitions ahead of them....It can literally rip all that good positive stuff away for many years if not permanently....

 

Its an existence at best not a life...Fortunately it can and does improve and even disappears for some blessed individuals...So never give up hope or never stop trying to find a solution....Its out there...We just cant see it at the moment...




#425402 Newbie Here

Posted by eddy1886 on 06 February 2017 - 06:22 PM

DP is probably the most undiagnosed mental health condition in the world...

 

I had this condition for many years before the internet came along and answered the questions that were going round in my head for a long long time...

 

Strange thing about DP is that the condition itself will  constantly try to convince you that its something different or more sinister...So alot of people struggle to believe that they really  have it and that its not as bad as they think ...To add to the confusion most doctors (including shrinks) either havent a clue what your describing or are simply afraid to diagnose you...

 

Your just left lost in a total state of mental confusion and anguish as to whats exactly wrong with you and also because nobody seems to be able to help




#425242 Would you pay $24,000 for recovery?

Posted by eddy1886 on 06 February 2017 - 10:40 AM

Absolutely not a f*****g chance unless they could guarantee 100% (not 38%) that it fixed me and fixed me permanently...And i would need that in writing so I could sue there asses if they were lying...

 

You will find they probably try to reel you into the  "we need to give it a few more sessions than we first thought"  scenario.........

 

Exactly the way most therapists hit you with "thats down the road and we can discuss that again" scenario....

 

Unfortunately where there is money involved there is an alterior motive besides a persons well being...The alterior motive being to "MAKE MORE MONEY"

 

Dont ya just love Capitalism... :P




#424914 Depersonalization is EASY to recover from

Posted by eddy1886 on 05 February 2017 - 06:21 PM

20 plus years of DP and counting...

 

No other comment!




#424762 I can't breathe

Posted by eddy1886 on 05 February 2017 - 04:25 AM

Im praying for you miss!

 

Im so sorry you are going through this...I just know there is relief somewhere in some form for you...

 

Just please hang on in there!




#424730 I can't breathe

Posted by eddy1886 on 05 February 2017 - 02:16 AM

Like ALL the time. And my mind is not working :(

You are more than likely constantly hyperventilating but are so numb there is no mental panic thats normally associated  with it going on in your mind...In a way the DP has numbed your mind completely but your body is still experienceing the physical symptom...

 

You could almost say there is so much adrenalin going through your system that your mind has chosen to shut off from it and let your body deal with it instead...




#424706 What is actually happening?

Posted by eddy1886 on 05 February 2017 - 02:05 AM

In basic terms its a Chemical Imbalance...Now if I could tell you exactly which chemicals and how much where out of balance I would be rich...

 

Unfortunately the brain is extremely complex and knowledge of how and why everything inside it operates is in its infancy...As a result any kind of irregular chemical pathway issues going on inside the brain are not yet truly understood...We will get there though...

 

Remember even though you feel your mind is basically malfunctioning it has amazing powers of regeneration...It can absolutely heal...You WILL get better!




#424002 Post Your Creations!

Posted by eddy1886 on 03 February 2017 - 09:32 AM

2 Completed Aquariums

 

240 Litre World SpeciesTank

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110 Litre African Rift lake Tank

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#423450 Sorry to say... (Be Careful)

Posted by eddy1886 on 02 February 2017 - 02:58 AM

As for the "You are just seeking attention" attitude....

 

That makes my f*****g blood boil....

 

The only reason anybody even tries to seek attention is because they were starved of it all their life in the first place....




#423434 Sorry to say... (Be Careful)

Posted by eddy1886 on 02 February 2017 - 02:45 AM

You are referring to whats known as the STIGMA of mental health...

 

Most people dont believe its real and that you simply need to "Pull your socks up" " Change your attitude" "Think nice thoughts" " Take a nap" " Have some hot tea"

 

That you will "Be all right in the morning after a good sleep"

 

They have never experienced real mental ill health personally and as result disregard it as a myth....Hence they stigmatise sufferers because on the outside the person who is saying they are ill seems physically fine...

 

I develop cancer and everybody around me is like "Isnt that awful lets give him all the time and support and back up and consideration he needs"

I tell them im depressed and they tell me "Its just in your head" "You are imagining it" "Your just being lazy"

 

Sad but true............Its actually a physically sickening attitude...And then when somebody takes their own life its like "Why didnt they come to me"

 

Idiots.....The reason he/she didnt come to you was because you couldnt have been bothered to listen in the first place...

 

This is why ALL mental health sufferers feel like a burden on not only their loved ones but on society as a whole....We are left feeling that our lives are meaningless and we serve no purpose because we cant function when we are ill....We end up just wanting to turn ourselves off (PERMANENTLY)




#423426 Pretty sure Sartre had DP

Posted by eddy1886 on 02 February 2017 - 02:32 AM

Now if you told what I just wrote above to a lay person imagine the look you would get in return...They wouldnt understand a single thing you were talking about...

 

BUT i bet everyone of you who read it and is a DP sufferer knows exactly what Im talking about...

 

Because as DP sufferers we think constantly outside the box at a higher level to the average human being...

 

The reason we do is because we are all smarter than the average bear....

 

There is no such thing as a dumb DP sufferer...In fact we are all extremely intelligent...Dumb people dont get anxious because they simply cant comprehend deep meaningful stuff and basically dont care about it anyway....They just toddle through life without a care in the world...Life can crumble around them and they dont bat an eyelid....We on the other hand need to constantly fix broken situations and be in constant control otherwise we start to feel extremely uncomfortable...

 

Maybe its time for us all to let go and more so let our minds wander....

 

The blank mind sufferers reading this are like yeah if I could even experience a thought in the first place LOL :P