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My name is Tim, I'm 26 from Brisbane, Australia. I first got DP/DR through smoking weed when I was 17, it was the worst experience of my life. I had a panic attack that lasted 4 months with no release, went to bed every night thinking my heart was going to stop, thought I had every disease under the sun - I was a buffet of psychological disorders. After going to the doctor who tested me and told me it was just anxiety/depression he prescribed me anti-psychotics and anti-depressants, I took neither. The way I figured it I took drugs to get into this mess and wasn't going to rely on them to get out of it.

After a year or two my symptoms disappeared, I got back to normal life and put it behind me - I had successfully rid myself of this hell although it always stays with you, like Dexter says it's a dark passenger. Around two months ago I was drinking on a business trip and someone had passed me a joint, I hadn't smoked weed since my initial bout of DP and afterwards I came to on the floor looking up at the roof completely out of it. This triggered a pretty big relapse that I'm battling my way out of currently.

Every day is a battle on its own but I'm making progress, I have cured myself of this disorder before and I know I can do it again - my panic and anxiety are under control but my concentration, ability to focus on anything and synchronization between mind and body are really out of whack.