i'm struggling with dp disorder for 26 years now. im 41 now to be precise. And I feel like im 25 at best because im lagging behind in overall development because the last 26 years i could barely get myself to read, study or write because of severe concentration issues. The social part is lacking as well, and that last is the one thing i struggle with most. I feel devastated last few years. Depleted really. 26 years... is... for me... welll... to cry about really. I don't need cheer ups or saving, but some like minded people who can comment, I think that would help me best.
I read and enjoyed other poeples stories last few years, but I never felt capable of posting anything because I myself can barely even communicate without getting confused. I even am jealous of the countless people on this site who seem to be able to place posts almost without efford. And so orderly. I cannot talk or speak without some form of confusion. So I don't understanbd how so many people complain about confusion and yet are able to communicate through this forum without effort it seems.
Even on this forum I feel alone, because you guys seems to type away as if it comes naturally. In that sense I feel that you guys are far better of then me, and that is very strange since we have the same disorder (i did get the diagnosis two years ago).
I mean.... who can live 26 years with emptiness and go on and on and on. Who? Me? well until a certain point yes. But I'm reaching my limits.
anyone having suicidal thoughts as well?
And please understand me well pls. I am not promoting anything, I'm just looking for people who can relate.