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#1 nirvana

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 07:35 PM

It feels like my brain has been reset and all past memories, experiences, wisdom gained, and all information that I have processed though out my life is gone and has been wiped from the hard drive of my brain. As if I don't know anything at all anymore. I feel like a new born baby in the body of a 23 year old.

I can tolerate the depression, i can cope with the anxiety, I can deal with feeling outside of my body and even deal with feeling emotionally numb. The only thing that I cannot live with is feeling like I cannot think. I can't formulate my own thoughts in my head, process information, digest information, understand concepts; words, etc. When a stressful situation emerges I don't have the cognitive ability to process it internally and defend myself. So in return I end up absorbing what I don't want to because of my inability to process ANYTHING mentally. When people talk to me in real life I just look at them and shake my head up and down to agree because I can't understand at all what they are saying. It feels like I'm standing up getting shot at, unable to react and draw my own gun to fire back.

How can this even happen to a person? I had a good life and have lost everything. Internally and externally everything. I worked hard for 19 years of my life to be a good person and now everything I've ever worked hard for is gone.

What's worse is that this affliction just happened out of the blue. I had never used drugs, never had a panic attack, I wasn't abused as a kid, and wasn't an overly anxious person. I have tried looking at this thing from every angle there is.

Has anyone found anything at all that helps with not being able to think/ reconnecting to ones thought processes? Any idea as to why this has happened? Any one relate?

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 07:43 PM

It feels like my brain has been reset and all past memories, experiences, wisdom gained, and all information that I have processed though out my life is gone and has been wiped from the hard drive of my brain. As if I don't know anything at all anymore. I feel like a new born baby in the body of a 23 year old.

I can tolerate the depression, i can cope with the anxiety, I can deal with feeling outside of my body and even deal with feeling emotionally numb. The only thing that I cannot live with is feeling like I cannot think. I can't formulate my own thoughts in my head, process information, digest information, understand concepts; words, etc. When a stressful situation emerges I don't have the cognitive ability to process it internally and defend myself. So in return I end up absorbing what I don't want to because of my inability to process ANYTHING mentally. When people talk to me in real life I just look at them and shake my head up and down to agree because I can't understand at all what they are saying. It feels like I'm standing up getting shot at, unable to react and draw my own gun to fire back.

How can this even happen to a person? I had a good life and have lost everything. Internally and externally everything. I worked hard for 19 years of my life to be a good person and now everything I've ever worked hard for is gone.

What's worse is that this affliction just happened out of the blue. I had never used drugs, never had a panic attack, I wasn't abused as a kid, and wasn't an overly anxious person. I have tried looking at this thing from every angle there is.

Has anyone found anything at all that helps with not being able to think/ reconnecting to ones thought processes? Any idea as to why this has happened? Any one relate?


Fear not, it's all still there. You're just in a specific mental state and as such only have access to specific memories etc.

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 08:03 PM

It feels like my brain has been reset and all past memories, experiences, wisdom gained, and all information that I have processed though out my life is gone and has been wiped from the hard drive of my brain. As if I don't know anything at all anymore. I feel like a new born baby in the body of a 23 year old.

I can tolerate the depression, i can cope with the anxiety, I can deal with feeling outside of my body and even deal with feeling emotionally numb. The only thing that I cannot live with is feeling like I cannot think. I can't formulate my own thoughts in my head, process information, digest information, understand concepts; words, etc. When a stressful situation emerges I don't have the cognitive ability to process it internally and defend myself. So in return I end up absorbing what I don't want to because of my inability to process ANYTHING mentally. When people talk to me in real life I just look at them and shake my head up and down to agree because I can't understand at all what they are saying. It feels like I'm standing up getting shot at, unable to react and draw my own gun to fire back.

How can this even happen to a person? I had a good life and have lost everything. Internally and externally everything. I worked hard for 19 years of my life to be a good person and now everything I've ever worked hard for is gone.

What's worse is that this affliction just happened out of the blue. I had never used drugs, never had a panic attack, I wasn't abused as a kid, and wasn't an overly anxious person. I have tried looking at this thing from every angle there is.

Has anyone found anything at all that helps with not being able to think/ reconnecting to ones thought processes? Any idea as to why this has happened? Any one relate?



I know this feeling to have the impression not to have past , to be a new born , and not to be able to remember your memories clearly , what you are describing is clearly DP DR ,I don't think it is a state of mind , I know too about the suffering of being depressed because of this because you don't know what to do to go back to your normal life and reality .
If it is not because of a child abuse , or neither medications , drugs , or withdrawals , maybe it is about your chemistry of your brain , a lack of some nutrients , like vitamin B , or magnesium , actually I am not a doctor , but sometimes , you know , maybe you don't even realize it , but something bad or someething you didn t like happened in your life , and your brain , as a defense mechanism , made you have a DP , it is not an exact science , there are so many possibilities , I really hope you're doing better because it breaks my heart everytime I hear someone who s living this nightmare , cos it is ...
I would really recommend you to see a psychiatrist , not a family doctor , or first a family doctor and afterwards a psychiatrist , I am pretty sure that with the symptoms you are describing , your diagnosis is gonna be clear for them , now we have to see if it is chronicle or not .

For the moment to help it , even if I don't do it yet on my own , I really recommend that you take walks , to breathe the air , it can be really helpfull , for the anxiety or depression make plans , think about what you would like to do , your projects , and try to accept this state , ( I know it is tough :( ) , Share with a lot of people , videos on youtube , talk with people, very important to socialize ( other things I should do too )

If you re feeling blue talk with someone , family , friends , people around , don't keep this for yourself.

To see a doctor would be great , like this you would feel better and safer .

I am sure you are going to feel better , I know this can't go in one day , but it can be released .

Take care , and don't hesitate to contact me to talk !

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 08:06 PM

i feel the same way but mine came from weed otherwise i wasnt so anxious at all. this is so strange and i cant believe im the only one i know that this happened to. did you not get enough sleep or something idk. whatever. when i went to the er they said it was a stress reaction but nothing else, never said if it would go away idk. it feels like i died.

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 08:36 PM

I read some time ago a post of your where you had taken Suboxone with a good result. Had you stop taking it? The drug is very interesting because of the naloxone in the drug.

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 08:41 PM

I read some time ago a post of your where you had taken Suboxone with a good result. Had you stop taking it? The drug is very interesting because of the naloxone in the drug.


I still take it. It helps but is far from a cure.

I take subutex now. Which is suboxone but without naloxone. I use to take suboxone but prefer subutex. Have you tried naloxone?

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 09:42 PM

I with ya kenny I cant think, cant follow tv shows or conversations, i have a very hard time reading or writing. It has affected my speech as well, i stutter and talk with very few words because theres no thoughts in my brain to formulate a sentence... its so messed up, im starting to wonder if i have dp or some other sort of thought disorder...

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 10:29 PM

i feel the same way but mine came from weed otherwise i wasnt so anxious at all. this is so strange and i cant believe im the only one i know that this happened to. did you not get enough sleep or something idk. whatever. when i went to the er they said it was a stress reaction but nothing else, never said if it would go away idk. it feels like i died.


Jeremiah , last time I went to the Emergency and the nurse asked why I came , then I said I got a crisis of depersonalization and you know what she answered me ?

She asked me back what was depersonalization disorder , she didn t even know the existence of that ...

So keep fighting for your health and go to see other doctors to tell them that it is still there and you need a specialist .

Weid or a withdrawal of weid can cause depersonalization derealization disorder

I really hope you re doing better , and don't give up my friend !

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 10:36 PM

I with ya kenny I cant think, cant follow tv shows or conversations, i have a very hard time reading or writing. It has affected my speech as well, i stutter and talk with very few words because theres no thoughts in my brain to formulate a sentence... its so messed up, im starting to wonder if i have dp or some other sort of thought disorder...


Optimus you should really see a specialized doctor , the way you re describing it makes me think of a withdrawal of a medication or drug which would have caused you a depersonalization disorder .
A withdrawal of Benzodiazepines can be pretty bad , actually I m not a doctor , but it makes me think about that .
When you re feeling very bad , that you are in crisis , it is very important if you can do it , to take deep breathes , and see a doctor , I really hope you got friends or family around who know about you and who can be there for you .
To be misunderstood is really bad , the fact you can t even express yourself makes me think that you re in pain and I really hope you re gonna go better .
If it is a withdrawal of alcool or benzo which caused you that , go to see a doctor , it is very important , anyways , if you feel like seeing a doctor , a medical assistance always can be usefull .
I wish you the best to recover quickly .

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Posted 14 March 2011 - 11:43 PM

It feels like my brain has been reset and all past memories, experiences, wisdom gained, and all information that I have processed though out my life is gone and has been wiped from the hard drive of my brain. As if I don't know anything at all anymore. I feel like a new born baby in the body of a 23 year old.

I can tolerate the depression, i can cope with the anxiety, I can deal with feeling outside of my body and even deal with feeling emotionally numb. The only thing that I cannot live with is feeling like I cannot think. I can't formulate my own thoughts in my head, process information, digest information, understand concepts; words, etc. When a stressful situation emerges I don't have the cognitive ability to process it internally and defend myself. So in return I end up absorbing what I don't want to because of my inability to process ANYTHING mentally. When people talk to me in real life I just look at them and shake my head up and down to agree because I can't understand at all what they are saying. It feels like I'm standing up getting shot at, unable to react and draw my own gun to fire back.

How can this even happen to a person? I had a good life and have lost everything. Internally and externally everything. I worked hard for 19 years of my life to be a good person and now everything I've ever worked hard for is gone.

What's worse is that this affliction just happened out of the blue. I had never used drugs, never had a panic attack, I wasn't abused as a kid, and wasn't an overly anxious person. I have tried looking at this thing from every angle there is.

Has anyone found anything at all that helps with not being able to think/ reconnecting to ones thought processes? Any idea as to why this has happened? Any one relate?


Don't worry Kenny,

We'll figure this shit out. And I believe sooner rather than later. My mind is also blank, but I'm learning how to handle this.

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Posted 15 March 2011 - 04:01 AM

No have havn´t tried naloxone - the half -live of the drug 60.min will dut you in a jo-jo effect. DP then no-DP. But I think it is the way to go. A drug with blocks all opiopate receptors incl kappa is on the way to market within the coming year called nalmefene. In 2009 I wrote to M. Sierra regarding nalmefene because it was more potent on kappa than naltrexone and naloxone.He wrote that they had considered a trail but never came off- he agree that there was a mileage there.If Kappa makes DP then nalmefene in a dose of 20-60.mg will brake it.
http://www.lundbeck....ams/default.asp

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Posted 15 March 2011 - 11:20 AM

No have havn´t tried naloxone - the half -live of the drug 60.min will dut you in a jo-jo effect. DP then no-DP. But I think it is the way to go. A drug with blocks all opiopate receptors incl kappa is on the way to market within the coming year called nalmefene. In 2009 I wrote to M. Sierra regarding nalmefene because it was more potent on kappa than naltrexone and naloxone.He wrote that they had considered a trail but never came off- he agree that there was a mileage there.If Kappa makes DP then nalmefene in a dose of 20-60.mg will brake it.
http://www.lundbeck....ams/default.asp


That is exciting. Should be interesting.




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